DJ entry for today: Linkylinky.
MILD Waking Life ~ 6th of August 2010
As you guys can read in my DJ, this morning's recall didn't go too well. I'm sure it has a direct relationship to how I fell asleep yesterday: fatigued and not fully focussed on LDing. I had a hard time not thinking about the stuff that happened that day (if you've got any tips on that Percy (or anyone else), they're more than welcome). I think my mind kept drifting away, but then again, I probably fell asleep within 5 minutes.
Now, I think the solution is twofold (and you're welcome to discuss this with me). Firstly, I think I should learn from this instead of whine and stop trying. In the past I followed that tactic and it obviously didn't work that well. So, what is to be learned from this? Fatigue doesn't help. It mainly just puts me in a "fuck it all, I wanna sleep"-mode, so I'll need to find a way to nullify that.
Secondly, I think the fatigue is basically a story. An excuse. Admittedly I was more than just tired, but everyone has these sorts of nights. In fact, you're suppósed to be at least a bit tired when you go to bed. I should find a way to get into the correct mindstate (LD, LD, LD ) even though I am tired, my dog just died, or a giant meteor is about to slam into the earth. Ultimately I'd want to EXPECT to become lucid every night (not just hope), a reality in which there is actually no alternative (i.e. not LD).
As for how I feel now, Percy: posting this stuff has put me in a more positive mindstate again (which I really wasn't this morning). I always turn around like that. Moreover, I just set an alarm on my phone for tonight bed-time to go off and basically go "DON'T YOU DARE TO FALL ASLEEP YET, MISTER! CLEAR YOUR MIND NOW OR GIVE ME TWENTY!" on me. I'll see where that lands me .
To wrap it up: we all of course know the above is bull and I will get lucid tonight. I just posted this for your entertainment, because I already know how to get lucid and have been doing this my entire life. 
[EDIT]
Thanks for agreeing on the body-engagement thing, Percy. I recommend it to all (except of course, when you're trying to fall sleep).
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