Hey fellow class mates
I have been on a short trip to relatives over the weekend, so I wasn't able to attend the weekly chat, but as it looks it hasn't been taking place anyways. I hope waving will clear up how the course is going to continue now soon.

Unfortunately the weather here was pretty bad last week (rainy and cloudy a lot of the time) so I wasn't really able to do the meditation against the sunlight, but I plan on giving it a shot as soon as weather conditions improve.

Instead, I did my daily little meditations of 20mins once or twice a day (mostly once...I was a little short on 'alone time'). Right now I usually do the kind of meditation where you just sit still and listen to the sounds in your head. At first all I could hear was a hissing noise (I think this is just a biological sound of rushing blood or something). I hear it everytime when I am in a quiet environment and concentrate on any noise inside my head. After a couple of tries I was then able to get to a more deep buzzing sound that is kind of 'beneath' the hissing. I get to that phase almost always now after a couple of minutes of listening in. And then there was this one time where I could hear a third internal sound, and this time it was a high pitched ringing sound, the same I have heard multipe times just before entering a WILD. Some of you might know what I am talking about, it's pretty common I believe. Unfortunately it happened at minute 19 of my meditation, so shortly after my alarm rang and took me out of it. I also haven't been able to get there again (and that was more than one week ago). Sometimes the environment also is just too noisy (for instance a fridge or boiler running nearby and distracting me with its external sound).
Furthermore, I think I will probably have to add a couple of mins per session and find a way to deal with the annoying pain in the feet and back, in order to get to more deep and profound states of mind.

I also noticed that some session it just seems like it's no use trying any harder, I will just zone out again and again. It's still hard to keep random thoughts from coming up and occupying my mind-space. It also seems to me that my eyes start twitching and going in all kinds of directions as soon as thoughts pop up. There seems to be a heavy correlation and I am thinking that by just concentrating on keeping my eyes still I could maybe keep the thought-machine silent as well.


Well, thats all I have to say for now I guess, feel free to drop some comments and ideas guys.