Thread: Undoing

Anthropomorphic hobbies? If your hobbies and posessions mock you its because you've labelled them negatively, you're mocking yourself. If they bring pleasure or a sense of purpose to your life then they fulfill a useful role, forget future or past. The reason why mindset's such as your own arn't acted upon is because they ultimately lead to apathy, inaction and depression... and how is that useful? atleast you get temporary pleasure from the activities you currently enjoy.

Overthinking it.

overthinking, probably.

but there's so many little thoughts at once I can't see the picture. which is why sometimes I may ask a really, really obvious question and not even realize what I've asked. anyway I feel strongly that I am a sincere person and I can think of plenty of what I feel are acceptable reasons for why I do the things I do, but I don't fully trust my mind (if I can fall for placebo effect easily, what else is my mind doing outside of my control?), and I also feel that there are a lot of people who would think my hobbies etcet are lavish, excessive (I think I'm talking about asceticists here?). and my concern here is not so much about fitting in, but doing what's right. I know this sounds ridiculous and extreme, and probably self-righteous, but I'm serious: if giving up everything (material) and living like Buddha or Jesus really IS the right way to live, then I may try to pursue it, or else I'd feel awful guilty all the time. well, I already do, and I don't even know. I think I just have an extreme fear of being arrogant, so I keep myself in a position where I believe I'm always wrong. I'm not sure if I'm being clear or not. I appreciate your input, please tell me if I'm making sense or not. I promise I'm not as ignorant as it looks sometimes, I just can't hold all my thoughts together at once so I get confused/ask things I should or already know.