Thanks for all the replies. Yea, in the title I said EVERYDAY life is useless...not life. I love life. So it may have sounded to you like I'm depressed or suicidal but I'm not. I'm just saying that nobody gets anywhere living the way most people do. All you do is work to pay off your bills. And by paying off yours bills you're basically paying to stay where you are, and to stay where you are you have to work to pay off bills...get it? I'd rather be homeless or live alone in the woods than this stupid routine (which to a certain extent I am and do). Like I said it all makes sense in my head but words fail me(like always). I think(hope) that you get where I'm coming from.