Originally Posted by Mario92
Woo! Congrats! Here's a "Yay, you got better soon!" hug.
Soon? Um, I don't call my getting better "soon". It's been more like 4 years coming. 2 years of being medicated for depression, roughly. But thanks for the kind congrats.
Originally Posted by SpecialInterests
I know exactly the feelings you describe in your first post. I've always had a history of depression, usually in bursts. I'll feel depressed for 2 weeks then be fine for 2 weeks.
I think I've helped assuage the pain by going to school. Learning is one of the few things I actually take pleasure in and feel good about, and it took me a while to come to this realization.
I often do still feel numb, cynical, and unimpressed by everything, but for a very good reason. Humans have created a world where unintelligent and unimpressive behaviour is rewarded. All you need to do is watch the news, take a look at our exploititave corporations most of us are so proud of, or watch MTV. Our society is full of uninformed, unimaginative people that only want to be entertained. Personally I can't stand hearing people talk about these superficial, insecure actresses from Hollywood, or talk about their favourite football teams. That type of stuff doesn't impress me, and often makes me feel sad that this is what we've come to.
Before making the decision to go back to school, I was one of those lazy people with no interesting interests. I find that even though I live in a disgusting culture, learning about it helps to free myself. I've found out that I don't need to be a product of my culture, because culture is fragile. It's not fixed. If one redesigns their own set of beliefs and interests they might find something they find pleasurable.
Anyway, this is how I've managed to slip out of cyclical depression. By learning, forming opinions, observing, sorting information, and redesigning my standards and sets of beliefs. Maybe one can relate.
Yeah, I know what you mean. I think it's better, though, to focus on the positive of humanity and realize that nothing is static, and we all still have a TON of potential as human beings. As long as you believe that, it turns out to be true. It has been true in the past. That's what I'm starting/trying to believe.
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