For the past 24 years, I have had nothing but apocalyptic dreams. I was 6 when I remembered my first dream. I am now 30. At that time, I had a dream of a volcanic eruption that destroyed the world right before my eyes. During that part of my life, I was in a happy home. No violence, no death. No worries or cares in the world. My dreams continued to become more severe. Floods, tornadoes, meteors laying waste to the Earth. I continued to have these dreams throughout my life. I don't remember any part of my life where they were worse, just consistent. All the time. Last night, I was woken up from a dream in a state of panic. Off in the distance, I saw a volcano just blow itself up in a distance mountain. As the smoke and ash came towards us, we ran. But, after we ran, the dream shifted into a dark place where we were surrounded by mountains exploding in every direction. Fire, ash, smoke. It was everywhere. These are dreams I have constantly. Dreams of multiple tornadoes destroying everything in it's path, dreams of being in a "concentration camp" and having to escape from the "Anti-Christ." Another, being in the middle of a war in the mountains with fire raining down from the sky. I've also had dreams to where I watched in the distance of a volcano eruption. Not much, just lava flowing, but it was dark. I was in a house, watching the news and watching the chaos outside my window. When I had woken up, I was in a state of panic, but what happened when I fell back asleep? I went RIGHT back to the place I left off. Literally in the same spot, same dream. It's gotten to the point where the only dreams I have are of destruction. Sure, my life hasn't been the best for the past couple of years, but when it has been a reoccurring thing for many years, it's starting to bother me. The other night, I had woken up in a state of panic. I was in a building. It was getting dark, but the sky kept lighting up. The clouds turned purple and pink. But, then the sky stayed lit even though it was dark. Inside the building, it was dark. I grabbed a lantern (yes, that's what was in my dream. ) and held it close to the window. The clouds turned into some sort of smoke type skull faces. When I came closer to one, it looked right at me. I have no idea why I did this in my dream, but I gave it a "scary face." I think I was trying to intimidate it? I don't know. When that had happened, it starred right back at me and gave me this insanely, sadistic, face. I backed up scared and then woke up. When I had woken up, I looked immediately behind me. My living room was dark and I usually sleep with my TV on in the living room. Noise and light for the hallway. I noticed my TV was off. Now, my Dish network is on single mode. Meaning, whatever is playing in 'either' room, plays in both. So, while my TV was working in my room on the same channel it was supposed to be on in the living room, it wasn't. The TV was on, but no picture. Walked into the living room. Changed the channel. Both changed, and then the picture came back. Silly situation, yes. But I woke up to my heart racing.

In 2011, my Dad was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. I took a nap one day. My dream consisted of my brother holding me back in his arms while I was kicking and screaming, yelling at a doctor in a hospital. When I had woken up, that brother who was holding me, called me to tell me my Dad was diagnosed with cancer.

I have no happy dreams. My friends say it's life, change, anxiety, etc; I also have a slightly enlarged heart due to "broken heart syndrome" of my Dad's death in 2012. I was told that my heart issues, not severe, could cause such issues. Heart rate, etc; But if it's occurred this many times throughout my life, even at happy times, how are these normal? Fire, tornadoes, floods, panic, asteroids. Even aliens. Yes, aliens. Does anyone have an explanation to what these dreams may mean? I'm looking to figure out what this is all about and try to get myself to a point where I can sleep peacefully without having nightmares.