Hello;

I just awoke from a pretty terrifying dream about a spider. The spider was enormous, like a the size of a small dog. It looked like a spider you would see in the Amazon Jungle or something. I was in my bedroom and the spider kept trying to attack and bite me. I managed to cut all of it's legs off, and the thing still kept jumping on me trying to bite me. I was hiding under the covers of my bed, trying to protect myself. My husband, who was under the covers was of no assistance. I kept calling to him to help me kill this spider, but he wanted no part of it (in waking life he is usually the pest remover from the house), and he didn't seem bothered or affected by the situation at all. The spider was relentless, and kept jumping on me. I believe I did feel a few small bites from the spider, but they were superficial. The spider continued trying to attack me until I awoke from the dream.

I know Freud states that a spider usually represent a mother or mother figure and could possibly mean a conflict with a mother figure. I am on very good terms with both my mother and mother in law, so I don't feel it is that connection. Maybe a female energy? I know killing a spider is bad luck, and in the dream I really didn't want to kill it, I just wanted it to leave me alone. I thought by cutting off it's legs would make him go away, but it didn't.

I've been having many vivid dreams lately. One night last week I had a dream about getting out of bed and urinating into a container. I filled the container all the way to the top and was trying not to spill it. I placed a top on it, and set it aside. The following night, I had a dream of walking down stairs in a house that was supposedly mine, and discovered piles of dog feces. It was a combination of feces from my small dogs, and apparently a large dog that was visiting us.

Then of course the most vivid dream of all, which I had a couple weeks ago. I was getting ready to pack and move to a new town. I was traveling around town, being generous to people, giving things to them. Then I was in the country with family, including my grandfather who has been deceased for 30 years. I gave an offering of food to cook which consisted of salmon and vegetables. There was a young girl there who was supposedly my niece, and she came to me stating my grandfather was taking her to a fishing sporting event. I was a little envious since my grandfather and I were very close when I was a kid, but then in my dream I thought since I was moving the next day, I wouldn't have been able to attend anyway. I was about to start cooking on an outdoor grill, and my grandfather walked past me and handed me the receipt for the fishing excursion, as a way to show me he paid for this little girl to go to the tournament, which was expensive. Suddenly, I am holding a baby girl, around 5 months old. The baby is mine, and I am examining and relishing every small detail about her face (he chubby cheeks, every little beauty mark on her face, her hair). She looked a lot like me, and even mimicked me opening my mouth, and I remember thinking, she is just like me. The baby was happy and free spirited, and the baby made me so happy (in real life I have wanted a baby, but it has not worked out for my husband and I). It was probably one of the best dreams I have ever had.