ok so last night i'm dreaming... i'm walking through my mall with a girl. we just keep walking and talking about stuff. then she turns to me and asks me why i'm not lucid? i say, "well i could if i wanted to be," but i tell her that if i try i might loose the dream and i really don't want to leave her side. to prove to her that i could do it if i wanted, i just punch a guy in the face, he falls over and starts rolling around in pain, then i say get up you pansy and he gets up and walks away. then i tell the girl, "see," i could if i really wanted to, i just don't want to. then she say, "ohh." -- goddam i'm retarded!

the rest of the dream involved us driving around really dark mountain roads, then she would spot light deer off the side of the road and we would watch them... then a huge thunder storm hits and this deer the was like 10 feet away from the car gets struck by a bolt of lighting. its pure white and the ground shakes. we just start driving away. -- what a crazy dream.

but seriously, why am i so retarded? i think i was dropped on my head as a child.