Here's a question I can answer with the utmost accuracy, seeing as I had my first (sounds like a sex joke) only a day or so ago. This is the best I can describe the entire thing.
I went to sleep that night, thinking of Lucid Dreaming like always. I was twice as confident as usual that night because I had been been up for 21 hours, I could barely stay awake most of the day, and I was going to sleep in a dark, quiet room where I knew I wasn't going to be awaken by outside noise. Enough about the set-up, you want to know the feeling.
You know how when you have a dream, you just do things without will or reason but you don't know it till you wake up and ask, "Why the hell would I be doing that". In fact, you don't even know you had the dream till you wake up. Well, it wasn't like that. I woke up in my bed and instead of the dream just continuing and my body doing whatever it wanted, I had thought process. I could feel myself questioning the reality around me. It was indeed extremely realistic because I know I thought that doing a RC would only result like normal. However, I did do one anyways because it's good practice. I did the nose plug RC and breathed in. I actually did breathe in and wondered if I maybe had my mouth open. So I did it again, more aware of the action and that time I knew I was getting air even though I had my airways blocked. The realization was pretty intense but didn't hit me right away. First, I thought that this is probably a dream. I had to check one last thing to make sure. So, I looked at my hand to notice a finger was missing.
That's when the sensations hit. It's almost indescribable. Have you ever had a revelation of something? When you figure something out that deep down, you knew that you should have figured out a lot sooner? It's kind of like that. Knowing I was dreaming was probably the most intense feeling I've ever had in my life. However, I have dealt with a lot of emotion over my life so controlling them is a talent of mine. Still, it was amazing. It's like being reborn almost or having your eyes opened again.
Let's skip through the actual dream (you can read it if you want in my DJ). The other thing I should explain is when I awoke. The transition from dream to awake was quite vivid. The dream was so real that it took me a moment to gather my thoughts. I laid there for a minute. It actually took me a bit to get used to the physical awareness of my own body. I will say the dream did feel like a dream upon waking. If you know what I mean. It's not easy to explain but I'm sure you know what the memory of what a dream feels like after you wake up. However, the memory of the thoughts I had within the dream are like any other thought I've had. The thoughts I had within the dream are just as strong as ones I have right now.
I don't know if the memory of the dream gets stronger with practice (which I'm assuming it does) but even if it stayed the way is it when I felt it, I'd be more than happy. It's amazing.
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