Probably about half the time I have a normal dream where I'm doing stuff I become lucid. The problem is the vast majority of dreams I remember, I was never actually in it.

It's kind of like I'm watching a movie, from somewhat of a bird's eye view, of whatever is going on in the dream only I'm not a part of it and I'm not self aware. I have no thoughts, it's like I've turned into a video camera or something.

Has anyone heard of this? Also my dreams are about 100% of the time very disturbing and violent. When I'm a non-entity watching things take place it's always some horrific stuff that if you saw in a horror movie you'd wonder who came up with this because they must be some kind of a serial killer to have such a sick mind.

But anyways, I try to practice reality checking and being aware, but it's impossible when I'm not aware of my own existence in a dream. Anyone experience this?