My first attempt at lucidity ends up in sleep paralysis

**Bullitje** · 10-09-2012 06:51 PM

Last night just before going to bed, I stumbled upon a Lucid Dreaming article:
wikihow.com/Lucid-Dream

I got lucid before, but never used a technique for this, so the plan was to think of cybernetic legs before falling asleep, so that will be my dream subject and I can jump really high in my dream. I spend 5-10 minutes repeating this to myself, and things got really interesting.

Of course I had read about sleep paralysis, and that It can be a frightening experience, but wtf just happened: In my head, I heard an evil voice scream one word, and it seemed to be coming from the left, I can't precisely remember which word

but one evil word just out of the blue. I tried turning towards the sound, and I was stuck I couldn't move.

An intense rush of fear came across me, and my whole body started tingling. Then I spoke to myself: this is sleep paralysis "get a grip", no your just bullshitting yourself "wake up now", Try to move your hand "NOW". But I didn't manage to move my hands, better yet I Decided to find out how deep the rabbit hole goes instead of fighting it, at this point.

But without the intention of waking up, fear passed away (more like I made it go away) and after I closed my eyes the visual hallucinations started, I saw shapes like forming galaxy's and old win-amp synthesizers (this is probably the best to describe something which is indescribable).
This didn't last long, I went searching for ways to control my state of mind at that point, the order of events is hazy to remember, but here are some interesting observations:

-Inducing a feeling of "falling" in my head, would intensify or deepen this paralysis

-Inducing a feeling of backflipping in my vestibular system, would partially work but could not be maintained

-Fighting it by trying to move "without thinking about it", would incite fear and tingling across my body.

-Lucid dreaming could be induced after enough "falling"

-Hallucinations could be induced by focusing on my vision and close my eyes extra hard

-Hearing was not impaired at all, if anything sounds became very annoying and distracting

-Feeling was annoying, one of my arms had an uncomfortable position, which was slightly painful but I couldn't change anything about it

-Crazy awesome lucid dreams, but it didn't completely feel dreamlike, it was a bit more blended and hallucination/imagination instead.

After some time, I noticed that inducing feelings or getting the grip was less effective, Fear wasn't so fearful anymore, falling started to feel like floating, moving my body no longer made me tingle as heavily, and hallucinations were almost completely gone. Basically I grew tired/bored with the sensation and wanted it to stop.

I never truly felt out of control, only short rushes of fear but now I decided It was time to investigate how hard it was to wake up, even if that means losing this great experience. I started thinking about moving my arms, because I felt they were the hardest to move in my body, when I wanted to move them "naturally" "wildly" or "fast" It didn't work, I wasn't able to break the spell.

But when you think about moving your arm consciously, there is no tingling or fear, it only feels heavy and sluggish and if you keep moving your arm, after about 5 seconds I woke up quite sudden. I sat upright for a short while and checked the time, about 45 minutes had passed. And decided it was time to sleep, laid down on my cushion and woke up this morning very thrilled and excited about my experience.

PS: My intention of having cyborg legs, did work out alright I was flying and the trust came from my legs, suddenly I realized "I am IRON MAN !!! WTF AWESOME" And then I shot a bird out of the sky with my hand palm photon torpedo.

**Raen** · 10-09-2012 10:22 PM

Sounds very awesome ^.^
You could use this in future to become lucid by using a method known as "WILD". You sound like you would be a natural at it because all you basically do is try to fall asleep while maintaining awareness so you consciously go through sleep paralysis and as you have already done this naturally, you may be able to do it easily.
Here's a brilliantly structured guide on how to achieve a WILD:
WILD Guide

**Bullitje** · 10-10-2012 09:52 AM

It was very awesome

, and I ended up in sleep paralysis again last night, although less of a grip this night (I fell into normal sleep halfway through). Still accomplished the objective of the night: basejumping!! I had a very detailed first person vision of basejumping and I was in full control. It wasn't just re-living some video I saw.

Also thanks for the great article on WILD, I recognize alot of what is described in there. I had heard of it before but figured it was "for pro's" But as I seem to be able to do it without fear, (even inciting fear last night was hard, only feeble images of werewolves and small girls from horror movies came up) I will definitely work on the SP to LD transition.

**Bullitje** · 10-11-2012 07:25 AM

Ok, it happend 3 more times that I ended up in some sort of sleep paralysis. 1 was very good and very deep, and 1 was good. But I had one very strange sleep paralysis "event":

It was very late last night, I was reading a book, and my eyelids became very heavy, I recognized I was falling asleep but wanted to finish the chapter, for some time I was fighting against the sleep ,fighting it without physical action never works for me. But what happend then was strange, I flipped a switch in my head "disconnecting" my concience from my body and my body fell asleep while I stayed awake, it felt like a weak sleep paralysis. Couldn't turn the pages of the book anymore or move my body for that matter. The lights were on, I was holding a book in the air with a sortof dead-mans grip, and my eyes were open.

Now is this even possible, am I faking myself here, did anyone else ever have this ?

**Raen** · 10-11-2012 03:44 PM

I wouldn't say it's impossible, but I've never fallen asleep holding something and maintained my grip on it. You say that your eyes were open, do you mean that you physically couldn't shut them or move them? During sleep paralysis I'm fairly certain you should have control over your eyes because a lot of people keep them closed so they don't see weird hallucinations in their bedroom while they are in it.