Lucid Vortex Dream

[Rasehorn]

Hi ! My name is Oliver, i'm 20 years old and i'm new to this site ! I've been looking around this forum, trying to find an explanation for a specific lucid dream i've been having since I was little. I'm no expert at dreams and other related subjects but have always had intense and lucid dreams. I don't know if this dream i'm having is a dream at all, but sort of a gateway to lucid dreaming. Anyways this is what i've experienced : Since I was maybe 12 i've had this dream, perhaps 15 times from age 12 to 19. It hasn't bothered me before but this last year i've become more and more freightened of it. This dream starts after I wake up in the night and go back to sleep shortly after. When I go back to sleep I hear vibrations, like my mind is vibrating and sometimes like something is moving around under my skull. I then get dragged into this dark,black vortex which sucks me in ,deeper and deeper. I'm always lucid in these ''dreams''. I've realised that this might be me getting sucked into a lucid dream, but I have no knowledge whatsoever about any of this. The reason why I write about this is because everytime I experience this I get more and more afraid of continuing into this vortex. It's like I get so deep ,i'm afraid i'm going to ''die'' . This vortex has always been dark and black but a few weeks ago it changed. I went to sleep and had a lucid dream which was so real I couldn't believe it and when I thought I woke up , I realised I was still dreaming and so I went back to sleep in the dream itself. Then I experienced this new vortex which was milky white, I new that this was the dream I've had before but this time it was different. So this white vortex starts to suck me in relatively slow, and I go along with it, then my head starts vibrating and I get the feeling of someone digging around in my head, then I hear the sond of trains driving over rails and camera flashes. I become afraid yet again ,but this time I feel two hands on each of my shoulders pressing me down in to the vortex, like it's someone wanting me to go further. It now gets faster and I start to see the end of this vortex which is space ,dark with stars shining far,far away and it gets so quiet and peaceful , which strangely enough scares the hell out of me and I pull my self out of the dream. I had been sweating through my sheets and it felt like i had been asleep for centuries. Then I noticed that I only been asleep for 30 minutes. Ever since this dream took place i've had a hard time going to sleep at night. I suspect this might seem silly to you but I wanted to know if anyone knows what this might be? Or if anyone else has experienced something similar I'd be gratefull to hear your thoughts on this dream! Thank you ! /Oliver