Hey guys,

So I got some help from a few of you guys in some other threads, and I finally made a breakthrough in my lucid dreaming. I've technically had 10-15 lucid dreams, but on February 25th I had the first dream that I believe really had a plausible balance of control and clearness, while it was still foggy and I didn't have as much control as I'd like, it was still better than I'd experienced before. Almost every one of my LD's has lasted about 15 seconds, but that one and one other lasted probably about a minute.

Regardless, that is not the issue. The main issue is that ever since then, it's like my awareness just packed up its bags and jumped straight out the window. I've had a few dreams where someone has told me I'm dreaming, and then I try and stick my finger through my hand. The finger goes through, but my awareness doesn't make the connection, and I don't go lucid. I've even said "I'm lucid" in one or two, only not to be. I also suddenly am just having immense trouble remembering to reality check. I keep realizing at the end of the day I've only RC'd once or twice, and while I absolutely try to follow the idea of doing RC's when something is amiss, not as often as I can, I keep catching myself feeling very unaware.

The reason that I had that lucid dream on the 25th is because I approached MILD in a different way. I basically said to myself,"Tonight is not like any other; I will LD tonight", and that worked, and I've done it since then, and while I haven't gone lucid in any dreams, I get more dreams, they are much more exciting or mean more to me than usual. I also recently finally identified a dreamsign, which I haven't been able to successfully do in the six months I've been lucid dreaming. However, in the last few nights I keep forgetting to approach MILD that same way, even though I can. I keep finding myself very disappointed by the way I am continually forgetting to do the lucid dreaming habits that I've kept up strenuously for the last many months.

Now, my question isn't too simple to answer, but what I'm wondering is, why is my awareness just totally dead in the water? Within three days my awareness dissipated like a cloud. Is there something that I'm doing wrong, perhaps? Something I'm forgetting? Or could this just be a normal thing some people have happen to them? One thing I have kept up on is my dream journal, for what it's worth. It seems like I'm having more dreams than normal, lately.

I'm sorry that my writing is so hectic. I'm just very confused about this, and I absolutely and completely appreciate anything you guys have to say, it has always helped me very much.