Back when I was a child, I don't have so much friends. Just a few one, but they're loyal to me. Since then, I made my own imaginary world. I made everything I could with my little mind. Few years have passed, the duration of my day dreaming increased. I could remember when my teacher was explaining home economics and I'm not aware that I was holding my classmates pencil turning it around and around. I only noticed it when my teacher dismissed us and my classmate wants her pencil back. I said, " What pencil? Oh, this." After a couple of years, I learned many things and refined the imaginary world. No one knows why I stare too much, even my parents. I made lots of characters with different superpowers. I went to high school, I made two characters. I got the idea from the game Portal 2, they were two cores floating around me. I used to talk to them (in my mind apparently, I don't want my classmates to be freaked out). I made them to decide. After a few months, a problem happened (BIG PROBLEM). It was a normal night, I was at the computer watching a movie. When, visitors came to our house and knocked. I went to the door and called my grandmother. After that, I quickly went to my bedroom (I'm shy and I don't want to socialize too much). After a few hours, they went on their way home. It was pretty late at night, I slept. Not knowing that the worst day of my life will happen tomorrow. I was playing piano at our church, when my mother called me. She said that I spoke crude words to the visitors last night. I denied for I knew that I was innocent. I quickly went back to the piano and thought about it. I didn't say anything. A few hours later, my father forced me apologize to them. I did, and I regret it. Depression started to grow on me. A sudden and drastic change in my personality happened. I am the kind of person who was bothered so much by the mistakes and things I've not done. So, yeah I can't release my hatred and died inside. I became very irritable and I do what others tell me. Like, you are so lazy. Energize a little bit. I will lose my energy and be lazy. Sometimes when I became very angry. I can't release my full hate and would end up hitting my head so hard. I can't focus on anything. Back to the two characters, I relied on them. I thought them as my best friend and no other human could match them. Some of my classmates knew about them, but not the whole world. The characters talk to me, I know I make their thoughts. But, they started to argue with what I want. Sometimes one of them said, " You shouldn't listen to them." I tried to fight them and they're gone, but not really gone. I made a character of myself for them to cling on. His name was Dreamer. He had a life opposite of me, a life that I just wanted. Since then, my day dreams got shallow and I day dream with only one scene repeatedly. Something is missing. A few months, I still can't get over the feeling. I want the vividness of life to come back. Also, the feelings of external environment affects my emotions. I became a optepessimist, I'm not sure what to do. Sometimes, I suddenly mumble/laugh while covering my face and overreacting. My friend got used to it, she's fine with that. My day dreaming started to become normal, because of my new hobbies. After a few months, I got over it and became happy. But, not completely. I'm still bothered that I did that. I really wanted them to apologize or understand me. So, if I day dream frequently. Will the characters show up? Do something? Or cause some trouble/benefit in my lucid dreaming?