This is a very interesting subject that for some reason I never gave a thought until it actually happened to me.
I was after a very bad breakup, sad, but keeping it together. The worst part, though, was that my ex was constantly appearing in my unconsious dreams and also a lot of things (like smells or sounds) reminded me of him. It was making me furious and I would always tell my friends how great I'd be if it weren't for those 'triggers'.
Then I had this weirdest, extremely realistic dream in which I was fully consious, but also convinced that it's not a dream, but some kind of different, altered state. At first I even thought that I passed out and woke up someplace else, cause that was so real. But then the strangest things started to happen so I decided it has to be some altered state of counsiousness.
Normally when really dark stuff happens in my LDs and I cannot control it I wake up. But here...It was truly terrifying, but I couldn't wake up. Now that I think about it I suppose it may have had something to do with my subconsiousness trying to make me wake up so I wouldn't make changes to it.
Anyway, after this series of very scary events I found myself in my room, where I felt safe. Then I heard this voice, but it wasn't coming from a scenery, more like from the back of my head. And it said something like 'Ok, so you made it this far so let's do this.'
And then my ex appeared in front of me. Well, he was more like a mannequin than a person, but I felt strong emotions towards him.
So I started talking and it was a very tough monologue, I felt variety of different emotions, was crying all the time. Basically I wanted to ask him to stop appearing in my dreams and associations but it was hard for me to do so, cause it would be like a final goodbye. A few times I was close to saying 'You know what, just stay', but I fnally managed to ask him to leave.
When I did my mannequin-ex dissapeared and I heard the voice again. It said 'Well, you've won, he won't be bothering you again'.
Then things started to feel more like a normal lucid dream. I drew a portal on my wall through which I jumped into my favourite band's concert cause I felt like I deserve it 
I never had a dream about him again and random thoughts about him would appear in my head less often.
However, I never tried to do this again by myself in a lucid dream. The process wasn't pleasant, but this I think I could handle. I just wouldn't know where to start. This whole 'talking to my subconsiousness' deal seems more advanced than just talking to DCs. If you have any ideas on how to start an interaction with your subconsiousness I'll be very glad to hear them : )
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