I am so sorry for your loss |
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A little over a week ago I found my first cousin Allen dead of a heart attack. This has been especially difficult for me because we were the absolute closest people in each other's lives. My daily life and thoughts have drastically been altered by his passing. Since the day that I found him dead I have had absolutely no control in dreamtime. The irony of this is the fact that up to this point (as expressed in my postings) I have sought to NOT control my dreams. Now, when I really want to spend time with his dream image I have no control. I can still recall my dreams and I am still able to control my dream environment, but I can not consciously realize during the dream that I am indeed dreaming. Has any other advanced (or not) LDer here had a similair experience? |
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What a long, strange trip it's been.
I am so sorry for your loss |
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you must be the change you wish to see in the world...
-gandhi
This has happened to me b4 (my b.friend)....well, I did not lose Lucidity, however, my dream control....I couldn't do it....when I am stressed, or really upset about something like this, I often find myself in a tough LD situation, or I SD (did that many times after losing my boyfriend)......the only thing I can control here is the ability to wake myself up in a pinch! |
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I haven't lost anyone recently, but I did just came out of a month-long depression, during which I couldn't even recall dreams, never mind control them. It will come back, just give it time. |
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Courtney est ma reine. Et oui, je suis roi.
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Apprentess: Courtney Mae
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It has been over a month now. My mind still has not reliquished complete control as of yet. I still have complete power of the manipulation of the dream environment, but I have no control over the path of the dream. The other night I created a monster black tornado that freaked me because I wasn't sure about the ability to control it's movement so I quickly thought it away. I am still grieveing deeply and I must admit that the randomness of the dreams is very soothing. |
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What a long, strange trip it's been.
The grieving process can take a while to complete. I suggest finding a good book or perhaps a grief counselor also the internet. If you cannot move on you run the risk of staying in the process and for some people that can mean years. I speak from experience. I work in a field where grieving is sometimes a complication of life events. |
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Martha
Phoenix, AZ
Change your life with your very next thought.
-Dr Wayne Dyer
Dear Aneas, |
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After nearly 2 months I have regained my ability to LD at will. It returned last night (I watched Vanilla Sky for the first time last night as well). The dreams I have had in the last two months were a journey. I am going to begin a journal in the forum about the key dreams. |
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What a long, strange trip it's been.
Congratulations! |
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Die Gedanken Sind Frei
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