That is a good question, Id say the biggest thing I see in myself is that I am too concerned about my old high school acquaintences. I was below-average coolness in high school, but really became comfortable with myself in college and afterwards, and it seems like in my dreams I always have something to prove to people I was only sort of friends with 6 years ago.[/b]
That only shows how things from the past are still there influencing who you are today. Why did you kill yourself? Did you know it was just a dream?