i found out why i'm confusing it's because now i'm allways fucked up


i used drugs enough to lose what my 'normal off drugs feeling or how i feel off drugs...


so i'm just allways without needing any more durgs 'High'



i before told myself to not luicid dream about it but to dream about being fucked up on drugs... and i guess i just got what i wanted...

it's hard to get people to understand what i'm saying but it can be understood if you try ... yeh ... hah you get what you want through your dreams and it DOES go into your wakeing life!!!!