Scared to WILD...

[nibbles01]

I've recently ended my dryspell in LD'ing, and by recently, i mean last night Having that LD made me realize just how fun this really is, i even flew, you've probably all had one before and after all it isnt really the point of this post... The real point of this post is with my next undertaking...WILD... Its a tremendously exiting prospect, as im sure you are all aware, being able to jump almost directly from waking to lucidity makes it well worth the effort... So for me, that isnt even the problem, the real problem for me is the fear of both SP, and the effects (especially the noises) that are generated. Right now your probably asking, "well yea me too, Why is it any worse for you? " My answer, I have an extremely overactive (and violent) imagination, I spend just about half of my life playing video games that involve explosions, bullets, and death, which i suppose is to fault. I've never actually attempted wild before and i'm very afraid that for me, it wont be "tearing metal sounds" or "nothing at all" , Im extremely scared of what my imagination is capable of producing...take the worst thing you can possibly imagine...multiply it by 3, then you'll probably have one of my nightmares....maybe im making a bigger deal out of this than its meant to be, but you can tell im scared, and that im sure ill just panic as soon as i hear something, and either pass out or just wake up screaming...i dont know what you could offer me that could help....but im holding out that somewhere on these forums there someone who could say something to me to get me a little more relaxed about this... *hope*

[Tara]

Well the humming noise is pretty standard. I think everyone hears the humming, which isn't scary really. It's awfully abrupt and sudden, and your ears feel plugged like you're underwater (for me anyways), but it's not really scary. I heard a woman screaming once and the screeching/tear metal is pretty freaky too, but you get used to it quickly. The initial experience with SP is frightening because it may be more intense than expected (maybe not for you because you're already expecting something intense). But after you've gone through with it, it's not nearly as bad the second time. Remember that absolutely nothing can harm you. You're perfectly fine and it's all in your head and it will pass soon. And remember that you're doing it for the ultimate LD, so it's worth it and you'll be rewarded for going through with SP!

[Tara]

Also, I have a pretty active imagination too, and I think of a lot of morbid and violent things. I'm surprised that my SP isn't incredibly frightening. I'm sure you'll be just fine.

[LucidInCuB!zt]

I once heard a baby crying during my period of being in SP. It felt as if it was real and apparently I felt its presence in my room. It was very intense but as long as I knew that nothing could hurt me, I kept fear away and had Wilded successfully. Don't let fear ruin your chances of Wilding because that would be very dissapoiting.

[nibbles01]

alright, thanks, ill give it a shot tonight i think...although i think i would wet myself if i heard a scream . as long as i can manage to force myself to remember that nothing can hurt me (which it probably will feel like it can)

[Tara]

The scream was actually pretty faint and only in my left ear. It was interesting but a little freaky nonetheless. It sounded so real but I just ignored it. Good luck! (:

[corleone]

Im extremely scared of what my imagination is capable of producing...take the worst thing you can possibly imagine...multiply it by 3, then you'll probably have one of my nightmares....maybe im making a bigger deal out of this than its meant to be, but you can tell im scared, and that im sure ill just panic as soon as i hear something, and either pass out or just wake up screaming...i dont know what you could offer me that could help....but im holding out that somewhere on these forums there someone who could say something to me to get me a little more relaxed about this... Well, the most cliché thing I can think of is: know how the mind works.. Have the right mindset: if you think that all those creepy things are gonna show up during HI they probably will. Just believe they will not show up or just repeat when you are in SP: "I will have a smooth ride. I won't see corpses, hear screams and get chased by canabalistic butchers when I enter or are about to enter my dream!" It's a little long, but you get the idea. Some of these things might have been scary at some point but if you are conscious that they're only in your mind, thei're even interesting. I've sometimes been more interested in these than the LD itself. There was a time when I wanted to make money out of transcribing the symphonies I heard in this proces. It didn't work, the more I tried to hear the symphonies the less I heard them. So now I just enjoy them as some kind of pre Lucid Dream soundtrack I have that too! I love SP and it's just freaking cool! I don't have that 'wild' WILD's though! To be honest, just one worked and that was a long time ago.. I am now, once again, trying to WILD every night, but I don't get past SP till now, which I (as previously mentioned) don't mind that much, even though it's not quite 'the ultimate goal'. I did had my eyes in fifth gear, while attempting to WILD, once. I woke up, because I thought my eyes were about to open, which they eventually did so to speak. I did had that really great feeling afterwards, because it was so cool!!

[psychology student]

I've recently ended my dryspell in LD'ing, and by recently, i mean last night Having that LD made me realize just how fun this really is, i even flew, you've probably all had one before and after all it isnt really the point of this post... The real point of this post is with my next undertaking...WILD... Its a tremendously exiting prospect, as im sure you are all aware, being able to jump almost directly from waking to lucidity makes it well worth the effort... So for me, that isnt even the problem, the real problem for me is the fear of both SP, and the effects (especially the noises) that are generated. Right now your probably asking, "well yea me too, Why is it any worse for you? " My answer, I have an extremely overactive (and violent) imagination, I spend just about half of my life playing video games that involve explosions, bullets, and death, which i suppose is to fault. I've never actually attempted wild before and i'm very afraid that for me, it wont be "tearing metal sounds" or "nothing at all" , Im extremely scared of what my imagination is capable of producing...take the worst thing you can possibly imagine...multiply it by 3, then you'll probably have one of my nightmares....maybe im making a bigger deal out of this than its meant to be, but you can tell im scared, and that im sure ill just panic as soon as i hear something, and either pass out or just wake up screaming...i dont know what you could offer me that could help....but im holding out that somewhere on these forums there someone who could say something to me to get me a little more relaxed about this... *hope* Yea, but the underlying fact is that you know that it is not real. With confidence these nightmares will cease.

[RBee]

Yea, but the underlying fact is that you know that it is not real. With confidence these nightmares will cease. And you know that there's a raygun in your pocket (or whatever your imagination can fancy) that can blast anything out there away, or an escape hatch around the corner. -- Btw, sometimes the weapons can morph or not fire, but never fear, you're packin' like Inspector Gadget! ....Or, just stand there and double dare anything to mess with you. The worst thing they can do is wake you up (;

[Original Poster]

To me its a simple strategy of acknowledging everything, and letting it go. Another way to say it is accept, then forgive. I've seen shadow people staring at me with loud screaming and a hearts beating and all sorts of weird stuff. I don't try to ignore it, I just don't let my head get wrapped around it. I coexist.

[nystagmus]

For me it's just like a reverse cymbal type sound. Like noise that creeps up very quickly, sometimes with a flash of white. I suppose this is that tearing metal sound people describe. My body sometimes gets really hot and tingly. My eyes dart around under my eyelids. I've yet to hear any sort of sound like screaming or crying. Last night I used the advice of pretending sandbags were pulling me through the mattress when I got to the stage of feeling really light. This worked in that I felt weightless yet was heavy and pulled through the mattress. Sometimes I also experience my body in strange proportions (Huge head with tiny mouth etc.) Just try it.