hi guys

don't know if you all remember me or not, was around a good few months ago but stopped visiting. I let the dream recall and keeping a journal thing go. I needed to get the rest of my life on track and meet daily tasks etc (boring I know!). Well now I am back and I am pregnant! My husband and I are over the moon! If any of the women here have been pregnant before they may be able to relate to what I am about to say.

They say that one of the things that happen when you are pregnant is that your dreams become more vivid. This is certainly the case with me. I am only 6 weeks pregnant and my dreams are going crazy. I am not doing any work in favour of lucid dreaming (although now may really be the time to tap into this). Regardless though, I am more aware in my dreams. I wonder if it's a combination of past work with trying to LD (I have had 2 in my life but many years ago now) and the being pregnant thing.

To get to the point, I have had lots of flying dreams. This scuppers my theory that adults can only fly in lucid dreams. But in most of them I fly very briefly, that's it.

Last night in my dream, I spent most of it flying. I KNOW I was not having a lucid dream last night - something was missing for it to be that. But all my friends were there, and I was trying to get them all to fly. I was flying around all over the place - wanted to show off (one friend wanted to take a photo of me and I said "I don't think it will come out will it, if we're dreaming?" (he said "yes but I can't be bothered to look for the camera"). I was by far the best flyer but was encouraging two in particular of my friends to do the same. They kept saying "this is impossible - it's impossible to fly" and I kept saying "just remember, you're dreaming, it's not real, therefore you can do ANYTHING." It was this realisation that allowed me to fly, I just willed myself off the ground. But perhaps I was getting confused as I thought that all my friends were dreaming too - we were all just dreaming together.

So - why was I not lucid, if I had this awareness? I thought it was this awareness that snapped you into lucidity? Like a lot of you say, I would KNOW, if I had LD'd. I am sure I didn't, perhaps not very far off from it but how could I have this control and awareness without it being a lucid dream? Was it a lucid dream, and I am just expecting too much from what a lucid dream actually is?

if you've stuck with me this far, thank you. I really would appreciate your thoughts.

Bookie