You cannot escape from dreaming at all. Thats for sure. If you dont feel like investing time into dream world, you dont have to. It will be waiting for you till you find reason why to invest some time into it.

If you dont want to stop your attempts, take a look at your current situation and invest little anmount of time to find out, if you can put your current dream abilities into some use in your current preocuppation. Maybe you will find out, that you actually dont have to spend as much time doing LD stuff only for the sake of LD itself.

This or that way. Neighter is bad.