Yeah, I've had positively terrifying hallucinations as well.
90% of the time in SP it feels like my body "vibrates", but most intensely around my left kidney. It's almost like I can feel my blood, it's weird as hell. It can either be uncomfortable or downright painful. I sometimes have to wake myself up because of it.
This has happened to me too. The pain of SP made me hallucinate that a knife stuck me in my left kidney and lifted my torso up to see a rectangle of light around my door. (I had just seen "The Ring")
black presence starts to rise in front of me
That was one of the first hallucinations I had with SP. I even saw a really bright flash of light come in through my window and chase it off.
Right away I know I am in trouble and have a huge rush of terrified feelings.
This is where you went wrong.
I've found that staying calm, especially in the beginning, is crucial. Fear makes you have scary hallucinations, which makes you even more fearful, which makes the hallucinations scarier...etc. Sometimes it will just melt into a nightmare, which is what I think happened with you.
If it gets overwhelming and you need to bail, shut your eyes and wiggle your toes. If your eyes are shut, you can't see any weird shit that'll freak you out. It will be hard to move your toes at first, but you'll quickly gain control and be able to move your foot, then your ankle and all. (SP doesn't paralyze the smaller muscles, and that's why you can move stuff like your eyelids and toes.) I never try to move my limbs, it ends up being futile and makes me more panicky.
Well, I hope that helps you a bit. Good luck, and don't worry about it before you go to bed.
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