It's been well over a month since my last (and first) couple of LD's. The frustration of failing to have another has led me to try just about every method I could find on this site: MILD, WILD, audible cues, BrainWaveGen, B6.... I even tried NOT trying so hard.

Of all the methods I came across, one of the most fundamental - dream journal - was one that I felt had the least relevance for me. I never really had a problem with dream recall, and I had already identified my dream sign (note screen name) before learning about lucid dreaming. However, a few days ago in the chatroom OpheliaBlue (and friends) convinced me to give it a try, "it somehow really works". So, armed with a spiral notebook and a pen, I've been trying it.

Close Call

1st missed cue:
It was one of those horrible dreams where my teeth are falling out. My mom is driving me around to somekind of appointments all around town. This alone should have tipped me off as a dream - she passed away a few years ago. It still bothers me that I completely ignored this painful reality in my dream.

2nd cue, barely slips away:
At one point in the dream I was stressing over my teeth when I remembered that I have had dreams about teeth falling out before, so it was time to do a reality check. I'm walking towards the glass doors on my way out of this building. I decide to try leap off the steps and fly once I get outside. But as I push the doors open I convinced myself that I was awake. Why? Because everything was just too real!

So, maybe I was lucid enough to see and feel the dream so real - but not convinced enough to participate in it. I don't know. But it is the closest I have come in some time. Maybe the dream journal is helping - "somehow". Or not?

NOTE: I've been in a pretty crappy mood the last few days and last night I just ended up staying up later than normal yet getting up at my usual time. I'm wondering if that caused me to wake closer to the middle of my REM cycle - hmmmmm.

Anyway, not giving up on the journal yet. 8)