Thread: Twoshadows' Dream Journal

It's one of those nights where I can't sleep. I thought about trying to WILD, but I'm not tired enough to do that either. So I decided that I would get up and babble away in my little journal here. And maybe I'll finally be tired enough to give WILDing a try.

Okay, so here were a few of my thoughts I had a few minutes ago while laying in bed. I was thinking about my LDs and how much I enjoy flying and how I just love the sensation of flying. I was pondering why I know how to make it feel so real when I obviously have never gotten to fly like that in real life. I came up with a list of things that I have done that may have helped me make flying real in my dreams.

Real life "Flying" experiences:

Flying on a jet--Wouldn't have helped with the flying sensation itself because it doesn't actually feel like flying at all. BUt it does help with the visual aspect of seeing the world from way up high.

Flying on a small airplane: Similar to the jet, but maybe a little more of the flying sensation.

Flying in a helicopter-- The best so far....especially when my friend who was flying decided to show off just what a helicopter can do. Wow...what a ride!

Swinging on a swing-- Even as an adult I still try to do this every once in a while. There is nothing that makes you feel more alive and brings back those feelings of childhood. I can't get on a swing without smiling or even laughing out loud.

Riding a motorcycle--The wind through your hair....Ahhhhh.....

Being on a boat in the ocean--up and down those swells, the spray of the ocean in your face, wind whipping through you hair. I will have no problem having an LD where I fly over the ocean.

I just thought of one more. It's too long to sum up in one sentence.
So here is a paragraph or two about it:

First off, I grew up in the big city. The only thing that kept me sane was an annual two week camping/hiking trip. When I first moved away from the city and to a place with nearby mountains, I could not stay away from the mountains. I was drawn to them. I had to go every weekend even if I had to go alone.

So here I was alone one Saturday morning up in a canyon doing some exploring. Suddenly this group of 4 young men pass by. We talk, and I find out that they are going to this cave. I thought that was really cool. They must have seen my look of envy, so they invited me along. I was very trusting and probably foolish, so I accept their offer. We spend half the day hiking to the cave entrance. It isn't until we get there that they tell me that this is a very dangerous cave and that we will have to rappel 180 feet into the cave.

My first thought was "I don't know how to rappel. I guess I will have to wait outside." But then the real me took over. I have never been one to back away from an adventure. So I decided to go in. We came to this tiny tunnel that was so tight that I had to stretch myself completely flat with my arms in front of me. I used my toes to kind of scoot me along. After I came through, the guys were looking at me with admiration and what they said has stuck with me since, "You are the bravest girl we know. No other girl we know would have done this."

Finally we get to the point where we have to hook up to ropes. Two of the guys go down beofre me. The one guy left gives me a quick lesson on what to do. He tells me that because of the conditions in the room below that they will not be able to belay me. That I will be totally on my own. Bu then he smiles and says, "But you'll be just fine."

So I hook up and head down the tunnel. It finally just opens up below me, and I find myself hanging by the rope. I am at the top of this huge domed room. I slowly let out the rope, practcing stopping and starting. I see two little lights below and hear faint voices that must belong to the two guys that went before me.

I start to slowly spin on the rope as I descend into the darkness. I can see the faint glow of my helmet's light shining on the distant walls. I don't know if I have ever felt such exhileration as I did right then. It was one of those monents that you wish could last forever. I remember thinking that I felt like I was flying.

To make a long story short, we got to the bottom only to find out that the jumars to help get us back up were not working. The three guys had to climb hand over hand back up the rope to get back out. But even in as good of shape I would have liked to think I was in, I knew I couldn't do that. The guys knew it too. They told me that they would pull the rope back up and tie an loop in the bottom so they could pull me up. So I stood there in the darkness as the rope was pulled up and away from me.

For the first time on this whole adventure I felt something close to fear. I realized that I really didn't know these guys. If they took off, no one would ever find me. I'd die..alone..and in the dark.

But they let the rope back down and pulled me safely up. We didn't get down the mountain until well after dark. That experience will forever be one of the best adventures I have ever had.

Wow...I guess that took more than two paragraphs. But that time of descending on that rope was one of the most powereful feelings I have ever had.

Wow that's an amazing story...although watching The Descent has kind of put me off doing that sort of thing!

So how about you, CB? How proficient are you with a light saber?
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I guess that's for you to decide!

Jess:

Wow that's an amazing story...although watching The Descent has kind of put me off doing that sort of thing![/b]

Haven't seen it. Would it make me never want to do that sort of thing again? If so, I never want to see it.

CB:

I guess that's for you to decide! [/b]

Well, yeah, sure...valid point. All my talk about us as if we were "dream sharing" is all just for fun.

So... true, if I am fighting against you, I'll make sure you suck .

But if it's you and me against the world, you can be sure you'll be the universe's greatest Jedi.

So, yeah, I have got to create a good Star Wars dream one of these days. Pyrox and Jess, since I have never seen your pictures, it might be harder for me to imagine you there (though not impossible). CB, I think you have some resemblence to the actor that played Anakin, so no problem there, imagining you a Jedi.

Originally Posted by Twoshadows

Jess:
Haven't seen it. Would it make me never want to do that sort of thing again? If so, I never want to see it.[/b]

Yeah probably, it's a crazy horror set in these proper caves. It has a good effect, really claustrophobic.

Originally Posted by Twoshadows

So, yeah, I have got to create a good Star Wars dream one of these days. Pyrox and Jess, since I have never seen your pictures, it might be harder for me to imagine you there (though not impossible). CB, I think you have some resemblence to the actor that played Anakin, so no problem there, imagining you a Jedi.[/b]

What do you mean you haven't seen my picture? I am a leather-clad otter. No, just kidding. Seriously, just imagine me liiike...Johnny Depp, and you're almost there.

Jess:

Seriously, just imagine me liiike...Johnny Depp, and you're almost there. [/b]

Ah..Johnny Depp. Johnny Depp is good. No problem there. Though maybe I should put you in my "Sailing with Jack Sparrow" LD.....

I have now had two nights in a row without much sleep. This really stinks because no sleep= no dreams. Plus, I function better during the day with a little more sleep.

This has happend in the past. I need to find out what triggers it. This sometimes lasts for weeks. I go to bed and wake up 2-3 hours later and never get back to sleep. The last time this happened was February, I think.

If this continues, then so much for all my big talk about these cool dreams.

Oh, wait--I take it back. I did have one very short dream this morning. My alarm went off at 5:55. I pushed the snooze button (out of habit because I was already awake). But during the ten minutes between alarms. I did doze off and had a mini dream where I was with a group of people that were talking about lucid dreaming (frustrating how that wouldn't trigger lucidity). They were pointing to a row of houses on a hill and saying how these people didn't accept lucid dreaming.

Originally Posted by Twoshadows

Jess:
Ah..Johnny Depp. Johnny Depp is good. No problem there. Though maybe I should put you in my "Sailing with Jack Sparrow" LD.....[/b]

Well, to be honest, maybe I am more like Orlando Bloom...but I can be anyone you want

I would like to sail with Jack Sparrow though, yeah! He/Johnny Depp's a legend.

Jess:

...but I can be anyone you want [/b]

Yeah, but would that actually count as being you??

I have always loved the desert. Here are some desert pictures I have taken over the last couple of years.

I took some Benadryl before bed because I didn't want to chance another night with little sleep. It obviously did the trick. I slept soundly and solidly from 10:00- 6:00. I woke up remembering my last 10 minutes or so of dreams.

Dream:

I was engaged. I was standing in my mom's old family room. The guy I was supposed to marry was standing in front of me. I remember walking to him and putting my arms around him and hugging him. He was wearing a long coat and was very short. Hugging him was like hugging a child. But I said, "I love you. I'm glad I'm marrying you. You are going to make a good husband." As I said those words I meant them. He would be loyal and stable.

Yet he gave some very awkward answer (I can't remember what it was). I was then under the impression that we didn't know each other well. We hadn't been physical at all. We hadn't even kissed. He was very shy, and was still very nervous around me. So even though he seemed kind of weird and awkward, things would change as we got to know each other better. (It was almost like this was an arranged marriage). I really wanted to be positive about this and not doubt that I was making the right decision.

Then he left and I was in my mom's living room. It was Christmas time. There was a tree up with a little train around it like my dad used to always put up. And presents were stattered around the room in little piles, divided up for each person. At first I thought that it was kind of messy having the presents all over. But then I realized that not many people would be here in mom's living room between now and Christmas, so if she wanted them all over, then why not.

Then my younger sister C walks in the room. I notice that she is dressed all up. I found that funny since I knew we were about to make a trip to see my older sister S. But then I understood. My older sister was Cool. Always had been. Always so up on everything stylish and fashionable. I guess it was natural for my little sis to want to try to look good for her.

Then she sat down on the chair across from me. Well, no, she wasn't dressed up after all. She was wearing her grey cotton pants with the little swirls on them and an old purple T-shirt that was fraying on the edges. She was barefooted.

Mom also came in the room, and started talking about the presents and the order we would open them in. She pulled a few over to a new pile to take to my older sister. One was supposedly from me to her. I couldn't remember what I had gotten for her. It was in a blue and purple gift bag and seemed fairly light-weight.

Then suddenly my older sister was there. My mom was talking about a gift that she wanted S to give her...hinting about it. I wasn't sure what she was talking about. Then I found out that my sister had learned to make these very delicious brownie cookies and my mom had been hoping that S had made some for the family group when we were all together.


This was the most vivid dream I have had in a while. I remembered it all immediately and didn't have to search for parts and pieces and back-track. All the details were right there when I woke up. It was nice to have a dream like that again.

I had a mini dream during a little nap I just took.

In the dream I was running around this maze of hallways.

I know exactly where this dream came from. I recently saw this music video for the first time where there is a "running through a maze of hallways" scene. This video is from the 80's. And I found it corny, cute, fun, and.... wonderful.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u0R7dvLAiP8...ted&search=

Another really good night's sleep. No Benadryl.

Dream 1:

I remember being on a bike tour with these other women.

Dream 2:

I was at my grandma's house with my grandma. It was like I was moving there. All these neighbors were coming over to welcome me to the neighborhood. At one point I realized that I wouldn't have a computer or internet, and I almost freaked out.

Dream 3:

This is kind of odd. It was like I had wondered into this store from my grandma's house (like part of the same building). I think I wasn't dreally dressed to be out in public...like I had somehow ended up here without realizing it. BUt I did find it interesting to be in such a huge store--this place was huge.

I wandered over to the garden section. I looked at the bulbs they had for sale. They also had pumpkins of all shaoes and sizes that I found fascinating.

Then I noticed that there was a holiday section in one direction. I walked that way. I remember briefly talking to a black lady who worked in the store (She may have asked me if I was finding everything all right). I got to the holiday section. It was outside. As I was looking I saw my best friend from high school. I hadn't seen her for a long time. She was pushing a stroller with a little girl in it. The girl was about two and had very light blond hair and blue eyes. The little girl told me here name and I said, "Wow, that's your mom's name too....and my middle name!" I also remembering how funny it was that this little girl was so light complected when her dad was black.

Edit:
Just remembered another dream:

Dream 4:

It was the middle of October, and I realized that I had not yet decorated for Halloween. I thought, "Why does this always happen to me???"

Of course this doesn't happen in real life. It only happens in my dreams...a lot. I have a feeling I will never recognize this dream sign. But--no--I shouldn't say that. What I need to tell myself is that I will recognize this as a dream sign the next time it happens. I will....

Dream 1:

I dreamed that I was back in my Grandma's house. I remember thinking, "Thank goodness I get to see it one more time before my Aunt sells it". [I have been somewhat heartbroken saying goodbye to that house that has so many wonderful memories of childhood and loved ones now gone. I have a hard time realizing that I won't ever get to be in it again. When I was just there a few weeks ago helping my Aunt sort out the last few valuable things, I walked around and relived so many moments in my head..."this is where we always had the Christmas tree....this is where we used to hide....this is the tree my sister and I used to climb"..... I guess it is natural to tie physical things with the memories--making you feel closer to them.]

In the dream I was going through the closet and thinking, "Oh I have to keeps Grandma's bedsheets.....oh, and her towels...". I didn't want to let anything go.

This dream just expresses how I have been feeling lately.

Dream 2:

I was with my friend Karen. She was showing me her big house (not the same as real life). They had put an addition on it, so it reached the street behind it that was at a higher level. And they did a new kitchen and made the bedrooms bigger. And she said they did this all for only $10,000. I remember thinking, "Wow...only $10,000......" I was feeling envious at how much room they had. And it had high ceilings....

Dream 3:

I was in a car waiting for Tanya.

Hey nice pictures too! What's THAT spider? Looks like he'd have my one fo' bweakfast!

Which one? This one? If so--It's a type of Orb Web Spider.


And this guy has disappeared! I had watched him (or her) since he was a baby--since the time his webs were the size of silver dollars. When last seen, he was in a web about two feet across. And he was not yet full grown. I have looked pretty carefully throughout the garden, both because I liked the little guy...and...because I like to know where to be careful and not walk into the web!

I slept really bad last night. I had Fundraiser and Festival dreams til I finally woke up at 3:30 and never got back to sleep. I am not even going to write the details of those dreams. I am letting my mind know right now that I am NOT ever going to dream about those again. My dreams are reserved for fun, whacky, NONreal-life things.

Thats a big web...maybe a bird got him?

I meant the black one in the desert a few posts back.

Oh, right, I forgot about posting that one. Yeah, I was out at night and saw a movement. I had a flashlight. It froze in the light. It actually let me get about three inches from it to get the picture. But then when it had enough it ran quickly away.





It was some kind of desert tarantula....about 3.5 inches long.....not a real big one.

I don't mind spiders, but I'd be so freaked out if one of those crawled on to me in the middle of the night.

On another note, I read through your entire journal, you have some very interesting dreams - and I love how you well you remember some dreams on certain nights and not so well on others. It reminds me that I'm not doing anything wrong concerning recall.

You're lucky to have had that many lucid dreams, care to share any advice? I'd really like to have one soon but for some reason it's been eluding me, I haven't had one since Maui.

CoLd BlooDed:

but I'd be so freaked out if one of those crawled on to me in the middle of the night.[/b]

That's kind of my thought too. I like spiders from a distance. And it doesn't have to be that great of a distance. I would just rather not touch. Sometimes when I sleep outside in the desert, I worry that one of those will cuddle up with me during the night. Or a rattlesnake. But my thought is, I would rather be bitten by a rattlesnake that mauled by a bear. So I sleep with less worries in the desert than in the mountains.

care to share any advice?[/b]

As far as advice..... I thought I had good advice, but seeing that I, myself, am on a dry spell, and it isn't working for me right now, I'm not sure what to say. But I think the best advice is to keep lucid dreaming on your mind as much as you can, that way it will work itself into you dreams more naturally. I must have been thinking about it more back then. But I have been trying to be on the board more lately, so hopefully the more I talk about it with others, the more it will be on my mind.

So let's keep up the discussions. And good luck to us both!

I guess I should write down some dreams before they are all totally forgotten....which, as I think about it, they mostly are.

I do remember something about camping at Lake Powell. But I guess I've let all the details slip away.

There were actually supposed to be three dreams I was trying to hang onto.

Let this be a lesson to me about procrastination and being too lazy to write down key words.

The exact same happened to me last night! Gah!

Originally posted by CoLd BlooDed+--><div class='quotetop'>QUOTE(CoLd BlooDed)</div>

The exact same happened to me last night&#33; Gah&#33;[/b]

Hey, don&#39;t be too hard on yourselves, you&#39;re allowed a break on the weekend

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As far as advice..... I thought I had good advice, but seeing that I, myself, am on a dry spell, and it isn&#39;t working for me right now, I&#39;m not sure what to say. But I think the best advice is to keep lucid dreaming on your mind as much as you can, that way it will work itself into you dreams more naturally. I must have been thinking about it more back then. But I have been trying to be on the board more lately, so hopefully the more I talk about it with others, the more it will be on my mind.

Join in my experiment to use the power of our minds to induce lucid dreams for each other&#33;&#33; Keep an open mind lol...