I have a lot of trouble focusing on school (I am a sophomore in high-school). Some tell me it is ADD or ADHD and I have a little of that (everyone does) but this is different. I have tried both ritalin and adderol and while they help they don't get to the base of the problem so they can't solve it. Basically I can't do my work. Well, I am fully capable of doing it but I have a kind of super-procrastination problem. I just think "oh, I'll do it in a minute". Boom, 5 hours have gone by, and I haven't gotten anything done. Then it just gets worse until I need to make a last-ditch effort and barely save myself from getting an F. However, when am able to do it I always get A's. The problem is, the only time this problem goes away is when I get really pumped up and motivated, which never lasts for more than a week or two. Like I will get a rush of motivation and do really well for a week and then mess up again.
I REALLY need a way besides sheer motivation to deal with this. It seems to just erode my willpower. I was absolutely determined today to do my math the instant I got home, but then I put it off and I still haven't finished it. All it took was the one "just a minute" and it was all over.
Someone please help me this problem is basically ruining my life. I get bad grades, then depression, then absolute drain of motivation, worse grades, more depression, etc. It is a snowballing cycle and it will kill me if I can't stop it. Last year I had it and I had an unshakable depression, all I wanted to do was die. Fortunately I am mentally healthy now, but that is only because I spent a long time in the wilderness and it cured me. Also, school started a few weeks ago, and the cycle started shortly after. I will soon reach this stage again if I can't stop the cycle. Please help.
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