The only thing i can do now is commune telepathically and through dreams (shared), communing through spirit is all i can do now without invading his real life he has now with a different woman and kids, and i got the same life as he does but we both know we aren't meant to be with them and spiritually know we are meant to be. Yes it is hard, it's his choice and i leave it all up to him to make his move, knowing that he likes to decide things on his own and be his own boss, he doesn't like others telling him what to do.
I know he is spiritually thinking to come back and be like what we used to without any trouble, i receive his thoughts most of the time and in the past month i have recurring images and thoughts and feelings, that he is right out my door and me seeing him and his reaction of that very moment, but i see him as himself in this lifetime, but whenever i invision him as today, his image quickly turns into someone else, and i can't help it, he wearing a suit or not his image changes just like how my dream was showing me in seperate parts. And if i do come across him again, i don't know what will happen to me, but when i invision him seeing me, i really want to faint or feel faint.
What got me more to see if it really connected was when i saw his youth mug shot online when he was 16, it looked so much like him when he was 12-13 in this life and had a faded tan, and was skinny. But now i seen his pics from this life he changed and added more weight, of course he always wants to look tough despite who he is on the inside. Added muscles and all, but when i see that, i tell myself this wasn't you when i last saw you, you aren't this way, your better than that.
Plus he has some tattoos on his arm and on his back in this life now, his past life he did have tattoos on his arms, but both are different tattoos. Bonnie had a tattoo on her upper right thigh of a heart with arrows, i never got a tattoo but i have an odd looking birth mark on my upper right thigh that is a shape of a heart, that sealed the re-incarnated proof.
I always thought that birth mark looked odd until i noticed recently that i have to look at it a certain way to be a heart.
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