Alright, I will start this journal by expressing my frustration that I have yet to experience a LD. I have been at it on and off for about 3 months. I chronicle about one dream every other night.

During the day I do around 10 RC's by drawing an A on my hand and either when I notice it or when I see something unusual I try to push my finger through my hand, then recite alittle mantra that I will notice the unusual things in my dreams.

I also meditate around half an hour every day. I sit in front of a candle and watch the flame. I then close my eyes and visualize it and go back and forth.

Before bed I do the MILD by reciting "I will have a LD tonight" usually around 120 to 240 times. Then I try to visualize myself in my chosen LD.

About 5 hours later I naturally wake up and try to do a WILD. I lay on my back and recite the same mantra. Once I feel more relaxed I try to not move and keep my mind clear. I usually switch positions about every ten mins. I usually end up laying there waiting for something to happen, and when nothing does I go to bed disappointed.

My short term goals are to obviously have a LD, increase my Dream Recall, and get better at meditating.

My long term goals are to have at least one LD a night, face my fears in my dream, meet my true self in my dream, and to better myself through LDing.

Right now my big disadvantage is that I get discouraged easily and frustrated at my failure to LD so far.