Lemme just pop in and say two things:

1. Welcome MyCooky!

2. Expectation, and expectations are important. They are important, in that you should never have any, but you should be able to use them whenever necessary. Secretly, your mind wills obstacles into your path. You can choose to change that. Tell yourself to expect nothing, and have no expectations; then everything is possible. It works in dreams, and in waking life as well.