I'm new :) just some random things I'd like help on :)

[TheVividDream]

I've just started practicing (again) Lucid Dreaming and I've manage to have two DILD's - (well they are sort of DILD's ) - I've realised that I'm dreaming twice through the reality check that seems to always happen to me (the digital watch check) and it seems like I know I'm dreaming but I just literally admire the vividness and enjoy almost spectating the event. The dream always fades to black and I rub my hands to keep it alive and that works for a short period of time but eventually I do lose it. I forgot to mention - I've attempted to practice Lucid Dreaming before and had the same problems then quit - I recorded quite a messy dream diary before and I gave it away to my friend who wanted it because he is a psychology student. My Main question is, is it just practice? My dream recall is average, I guess I can recall about two to three a night, they are normally small. I often muddle the recall also and some things are a tad in accurate, is this normal?