Thank you for the warm welcome! Very nice to see that there are others out there that appreciate Owl Medicine too Owls have always been my totem, since as long as I can remember. I hope it will help me in this lucid dreaming quest in some ways!
IAmCoder - very cool that you lived here. Good to know there is someone in here who shared the same experience 
I have been having trouble trying to get lucid, but after this past night, I think I know why. I was attempting to get at the goal the wrong way, or maybe not wrong, but more difficult way. I was waiting to become lucid in my dream. But each morning, I would record what I remembered of my dream from the night, and wonder why I didn't become lucid - I just can't seem to look at my hands, and no matter how strange the dream seems, it doesn't phase me.
This past night I was woken up at around 5:30am. So I went to the bathroom and then crawled back into bed, figured I would try a WILD since I felt fully rested. All I can say is WOW... that was an experience. A mixture of excitement and frustration!
Since I was a teenager I have had the skills to meditate - well actually, now I know that it's more like putting my body into sleep paralysis while the mind remains aware. So it dawned on me that I should try that and see if it could lead to a WILD. I don't know how to describe what happened... but I think I almost made it.
I think it started somewhere around "seeing" swirly bits of dark coloured smoke behind my eyes, then it felt like my vision was following one swirl, which was coming towards "me", which kind of pitched me into an inward sort of focus. Then I felt the buzz around my head (and feet actually) which caused some intense excitement, my heart started to pound and I felt like I wasn't getting enough breath. I knew that this feeling could shatter my attempt so I tried to tell myself to calm down and let go, and then there was a feeling of rolling - both into and out of myself. Unfortunately that is when my muscles started to tense up slightly, which stopped my transition 
It happened again one more time, but there was noise in the room that stole my focus 
So I am excited that I got so far on my first try, but frustrated. How do I get beyond that last hurdle?? Any tips would be welcome. I think part of the problem is that I was on my side, and that confused my body when it started to "roll", making my muscles tense. I think I definitely should be on my back next time.
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