Originally posted by Alaurast78
Well I believe that I have had LD's all my life they were just very low level and I believe I was afraid of them. Anyway my first LD was a lot like cynical_bob's.

I had a horrible sense of unbalance, it felt like the whole world was being torn appart (after the inital spiral rush of entering the state), and I couldn't tell if i was actually awake or not.
I knew I was dreaming and for some reason I could not control anything and fear took over... I mean this dead weight fear that takes over your soul! I would feel like I was falling and that someone or something very very evil was after me. I have had this dream many times and it is always the same. Totally scary, in black and white, in the same room and I have the same feelings. Like I said I know it is a dream but all i can do is wake myself up because it freaks me out so much!

My first LD since joining the site was a lot more fun! Check it out!
http://www.dreamviews.com/forum/viewtopic....2363&highlight=

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That's happenned to me, too. I fell into a black hole (it sounds funny, but it really isn't) and even though I was perfectly lucid, I could do nothing, and the worse I stuggled the harder it was to get out. . . . Those are NOT fun.

On a ligher note, I have been lucid dreaming for pretty much my entire life -- low-level at first, but building my way up. So I can't tell you my first lucid dream, but I CAN tell you the first one I remember.

I was at the beach, on one of those rocky walls they make along ship harbors. Running off one side of this was one of those large, four-or-five-person metal slides that they have on little-kid playgrounds. And a bunch of my friends and I were on it, trying unsuccessfully to scramble up the slippery slide to get away from the big scary shark at the bottom. I was in second grade.

So eventually, I get tired of running up the slide, and I jumbed down onto a stretch of beach. And the shark starts lunging at me on either side, but never touching me. And then I realize to my surprise that the shark has BUCK TEETH!

So of course I realize that I'm dreaming, and I stand there because the shark can't possibly get me. Then I get bored of standing around and jump back onto the slide and continue running away from the shark. But this time, I know it's a dream and I treat it like a game, even though my friends are scared out of their wits.

So there you have it. Nothing so beautifully symbolic as some of what you've been describing -- unless you are Buddhist and look at it as symbolic of Enlightenment and Samsara, with the shark piosing as Mara, of course. But then, I was rather young, and it was enough to have a strong impact on my attitude toward dreaming.