Alright guys need your help, finally made an account

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Hey guys I'm brand new (long time lurker first time poster) and need some advice from people who experienced with what I hope are normal beginner symptoms, although it's very possible I'm just paranoid. I spent some time reading guides on lucid dreaming and began writing an A on my hand and using the nose plug and finger through hand reality checks . I stayed very consistent with this for a few days and then began to do it just once in a while. I had no success whatsoever for 2 or 3 weeks until it finally happened, and It was when I almost completely stopped learning or focusing about/on lucid dreaming. To keep it very short and very simple during a dream I found myself in a rush to turn lights on, and as many of you know no matter how many lights I tried to turn on it's resulted in them almost burning out or slightly flickering once and then becoming completely dead. After three attempts I asked myself why this was happening, told myself that it's fine I'm awake and proceeded to grab my nose. First breath in felt funny and second one I took a full, deep breath directly through my plugged nose (amazing feeling by the way) and "dropped", or at least it felt like I fell into full awareness. Naturally it was completely unexpected and it only lasted 10-15 seconds because I was exited and tried to get outside to attempt to fly. I would describe this feeling very similar to swimming against a current down my hallway which I became lucid at one side of, and made my way towards the other into my living room where I saw all the windows and tried to get beyond them as fast as possible. Now here is my problem I have very vivid dreams quite often ( even before learning of lucid dreaming) and have experienced sleep paralysis not knowing what it was which is quite frightening. Now that I know what It is I have experienced it and been fine. I find my body waking itself up at around 5-7 am the last few nights in a row. I then for some reason obsess about the fact that I may fall into sleep paralysis and even though I know what it is I am very anxious about it. What is insane is that this morning in particular I was laying in bed around 6am and figured I would try and sleep and look past my anxiety. Basically being so paranoid about falling into SP I actually fell into it(I think). I definitely could not move and almost right away I heard strange high pitched music and saw a white pattern with a gears of war logo type skull in my vision. At this point I was aware of what was happening but remained calm because I am aware of what a WILD consists of a little bit(never read a tutorial) and let this play out. I felt like my mind was a projector and a movie of me receiving advice from a fellow team member on some sort of sports team was playing very briefly, the perspective was that my head was down and i didn't get any clear view of my surroundings. I was not at any point in a lucid dream here. I then woke up and felt unsettled. I am just worried about feeling anxious in the morning if i wake up earlier and wish to go back to sleep. Lucid dreaming is something I had a very tough time believing was actually possible until i experienced it on purpose ( via a reality check rather than a fluke or very vivid dream ) but its not like i dread it. I am actually very exited that I experienced this and am looking forward to having more dreams like this one if I am lucky enough. I just find the whole concept of WILD dreaming very intimidating and it might be because I haven't actually read up on it yet. So what it comes down too is I am looking for similar experiences to mine or advice from anyone who has it too offer. Thanks in advance! Cliffs: Had first lucid dream using reality checks, becoming nervous about SP in the morning when I wake up naturally and wish to go back to sleep. Looking for advice/similar experience.