Hey!

I am new in here. I registered because I couldn't find any information anywhere. I have been looking for some time. Well let's start telling who I am. I am 21 year old boy from Finland. I have always had the ability to control my dreams, forcibly break out of them.

But now to the problem. Last year I had my first sleep paralysis. It went away as I calmed myself. The next time I got it half year later and I did the same thing. On summer I got one and I broke the state somehow. I have been reading that it should not be possible. I noticed that i couldn't sleep and one ugly cat was looking me. I forcibly raised my hand and said: "I don't even have a cat." I woke up and then few minutes until I started to see those cat's heads everywhere. It went after some time.

The other time was that I saw two different worlds with two eyes. Other had computer on and other did not. It was freaky and I forcibly broke myself out of that one also. I hate being held by something. Even it would be my own head... After that I started to hear dishes breaking everywhere. There was no dishes at all. I went back to sleep when dishes stopped that.

But after that I had a dream where I was bicycling on the dark road then I felt when my body was trying to go into that state! I woke up before that happened. The thing is.. I haven't seen nightmares since then. Also my other feelings has been removed from dreams. It is very strange. That thing happened in July. Any suggestions what I should do? I would like to feel again in my dreams...

I haven't found any information about if someone has broke that state. I felt terrible pain, but did it anyhow...