and glad i was.that left me able to think and experience my daytime ability to open my other eyes and experience mobile astral lucidity between 54-57 my experiences came when ever then i was able to manipulate my experiences later then i was able to open the door with simply saying open sayss i,started getting a little scarry,and i walked out of one,then refused entry until i was prompted by my thinking or will force, i opened my eyes to normal and was i surprised to see an oblong wall of bright sunlight,my will or think said i can take the brightness this time [refered to earlier blinding light]prepared me.after 5 minutes or so of sungazing 2 grapefruit size balls of sunlight fell into each of my knees.when 1 month of thinking could not penetrate the mystery.so i decided to go write the dimentions down.spreading my arms on a wall to calculate the lenghth,the wall of light reapeared,i was floored never have i returned to the same place.and then i realized the wall was made of yellow fog,like dry ice,began to drift another bright color appeared............till next time,up to now a spiritual bent kept me going 6 months after i became a scientist hoping to build that bridge that connects the 2 opposing forces ive had 20 experiences age 3-57 and lucid dreams all along,what a joy if anyone appreciates my posts,for my whole life ive had to carry alone,for opening my mouth brought calls for mental illness[search rudolf steiner]my only life raft through out,will post more if wanted.. stevet54