Thread: age 33 first connection since childhood

dreams and imaginative experiences carry no memory so we make a memory by reliving the experience.Had i not kept my childhood experiences alive some of my visions would be over whelming,so i have surmised that early eyes were a preparation of what was to come in the future............sitting on a bed while my son napped a universal panorama opened,and on the right in the distance a red arch of scintilating light[this term is used for aura without migraine]search it you will see the arc im talking about.simultaneously a blue arc was coming from the left,it took awhile yet my only thought was cant wait to see purple. when they came together[dumas]of all the things i could only look for purple,when they set up one inside the other they never made purple[after 5 yrs i found out colors dont mix on the other side].about now i saw a bare leg and some cloth and and tried to look up and see a face and could not.15 years later i realized i was sitting in the chair and was looking down at my leg,well i thought the door was opening,at this point i knew it wasn supposed to happen at this age,and felt abandoned.many elevated thinking journeys and no picture.perhap i will remember some small ones later.at 50 i became disabled from smoking camels,but it was great ss pay all day to myself,my work was with trees and nature and i are friends[on facebook] so in earnest i had time to sort out my vision.as rudolf steiner said the fifties were time for understanding the threshold between the 2 worlds,he wasnt kidding, you have no idea what pleasure to share my experiences,before only anguish yet being a dumas i kept talking .when i was a child i naturally thought every one experienced what i saw,got that one wrong too...........steve