So, ever since I was about 12, I started waking up at around dead time, 3:00 AM. Every night and I was Paralyzed. I couldn't move any part of my body or talk, all I could do was move my eyes around, so I knew I was awake and sometimes be able to twitch a bit. When It first started I was REALLY scared, I thought someone was trying to take control of me or even worse, that I was becoming possessed. The thought of this is making me want to cry but I have to know. It stopped for about 2-3 years then came back then stopped for about another 3 years and then came back. I'm 18 now and it stopped again but was doing it again about a month ago. I saw something that looked like a black figure on the ceiling and it literally scared me so much I jumped. What I'm wondering is, if I'm having sleep paralysis does this mean I'm Lucid Dreaming? I've never actually tried having Lucid Dreams before, they intrigue me but sound scary, Such as I hear looking at yourself in a Mirror during Lucid, your face will be deformed or you'll have black holes for eyes, and is what I've been experiencing connected to an Evil or Demonic spirit in ANY way. There is strong negative emotion in my house because of all the fighting that is constantly going on and the abuse taken place in it as a child. Could any of these things be connected??