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I discovered lucid dreaming when I was about six years old. I was staying the night at my grandparent's house, and they had let me stay up watching my favorite cartoon: VOLTRON: Defender of the Universe. The one with the lions. You lame car-voltron fans can go away. In my dream, two of the characters, Pidge and the Princess, were hiding behind some rocks, getting shot at from all sides by the bad guys. I heard my own voice say "and now Pidge will run out from behind the rocks, shooting, but he will fall flat on his face with his but sticking up in the air, and it will be really funny" and it happened just like that. And from that point on, I can hear my own voice in the "back of my head" in my dreams.

After a few nights of this, I brought it up with my mom. As it turns out, my family is one of those where "picking on" is supposed to be great fun. Should somebody say something that isn't "quite right" then it is standard procedure to rip on them anytime anything relating to that subject comes up. So, for a six year old to try and describe lucid dreaming, I thought I did alright. Nobody else was impressed, or seemed to "get it". So, for a while afterward, any time that dreams, dreaming, or sleep came up, my "strange dreams" would be brought up and ridiculed. I learned to shut up about my dreams.

Over the years, I have enjoyed my lucid dreaming experience. I am -always- in control of my dream, unless I decide not to be. Except for one recurring nightmare after watching a friend killed as a teenager, I haven't had a "bad dream" since I was five or six. I even discovered that I can "meditate" while I am having a dream, and will wake up feeling even better than just normal sleep. I don't know exactly HOW I did it, I just did.

Fast forward to years later: My wife's mother had just died, and she was having a terrible time with bad dreams and not being able to sleep. For the sake of our >1 year old daughter, I tried again to explain the little I knew of lucid dreaming and told her that it might help her out. Predictably, I got much the same answer from my wife as I did from my family years prior, except she had grief-rage to express, as well. I re-learned to shut the hell up about my dreams.

Here is where my problems began. I was working to put my wife through college, and putting in long hours at two jobs. I was literally working 22 hours a day, 7 days a week, for months on end. I forced myself to stay awake so long, for so often, that I became an insomniac. I would still enjoy my lucid dreams, when I could have them. At first, the dreaming itself wasn't a problem, once I was asleep the show began... when I could get to sleep. Even after the excessive work hours stopped, after the stress and subsequent release of a divorce, I have an incredibly hard time getting to sleep. What is even worse, is I went to see a doctor about my insomnia. I was prescribed drugs to help me sleep. That was the first time since I was six years old that I wasn't in complete control of my dreams. I was confused, slow, and clumsy in my dreams. That never happened. I tried to explain to my doctor why I didn't like the drugs, but he just could not wrap his mind around the fact that I wasn't having NIGHTMARES, or even BAD DREAMS, per se. I just wasn't in complete control of every aspect of my dreams like I have been used to my entire life. After an entire month with sluggish, or no dreams at all, I got rid of the medication. What was the point in sleep when the very thing that made it great was taken away?

Well, the effects of the drugs have been a little longer-term than I would have hoped. I still have lucid dreams, and they are better than what I had while drugged up, but it takes an effort now, where before it did not. And the insomnia is back, full force. One of those things that insomnia does, is inhibit your decision making. You just aren't thinking clearly when you haven't slept in days. So, this morning, when a facebook friend was complaining about "weird" dreams, I once again opened my stupid mouth about lucid dreaming. Only this time, instead of getting a bunch of flak, I got encouragement and a google-supplied link to this website.

So, here I am, hoping to learn some techniques on getting to sleep normally again, and perhaps return some of the "ability" I feel that I have lost because of the drugs. Any tips would be greatly appreciated.


tl;dr - Voltron is AWESOME