Thread: An experienced beginner?

Hi, I'm Rosemary. I found this website yesterday (8.11.05) and discovered that I have been having lucid dreams from my childhood days but didn't know thats what they were. I can normally control my dreams, what happens and who is in them and often have the same dreams but usually with different endings. At times a deep voice cuts in and tells me that I can't do what I want to do in the dream and the dream changes. They are then often very evil and sick or perverted which I hate and I wonder how I can dream about things that I have never seen in real life or sometimes even heard of.

One thing I can't do is wake up when I want to. I know I am dreaming and I try so hard to wake up but it's almost like being at the cinema sat in the middle of a row. I want to get out but can't and have to wait until the end of the film/dream. Do you know how to break out of a dream?

Last night I threw myself out of bed again dodging a bullet which had been fired at me in my dream. A few months ago it was to dodge a car which was trying to run me over - do these things happen to other people too? I went to the doctor because I didn't understand what was happening to me (no-one I've ever spoken to has understood what these dreams were like) and he sent me to a psychiatrist who was no help at all. Finding out a name for all of this is a big relief!