Lily,

Your life sounds like a wild roller coaster ride. Seems like your having fun with it too. I like to try a lot of different things in my life as well including many different drugs. Drugs are nothing to mess around with (do your research) but they can take you to amazing new states of consciousness under the right conditions. It is hard to decribe but I've enjoyed what I've been through. Anyway, I love your spirit. Its very inspiring. Hope everything works out for you.

Peace