Ahhh, the many inconsistencies of the dream...soon you will hopefully learn to harness it, and begin to control it, depending upon your desire. Dreams are freaky...they are so strange, as your unconscious will try to make something of it: so learn how to take the 'un' out of unconscious...and you will reach your goal.

Welcome to the board!

Another thing: Don't get burned out...i suggest you cut that 7 hours of reading down to about 1 and a half or 2...RELAX, don't get too anxious, or else it will NEVER come. Its great to see this passion in a nOOb, but don't let it burn you out (trust me; i know how it is)