lol @ the topic title, but it's true

I found this forum some time ago, when I was looking for more information about lucid dreaming

already had several low-lucidity dreams, but my main target is a successful WILD


well, lately I've been really stressed up, many htings happened, including my sis getting kidnapped and a small car accident (not lucky)
therefore my relaxation had been a problem during this period, and I ended up losing couscience when trying to wild

but now things are getting back to normal, and finally I could go further with wilding


matter is, when I get to the early stages of SP, I don't know why I can't go on.... I can stay focused and think about nothing, I've done all the things mentioned on several tutorials, but still all I get is a short feeling like I'm falling, and then it ends and I don't feel SP anymore

another thing I've noticed, I lose awareness of my hands pretty fast, and when I try to move them, I feel there's no bed holding it anymore, it's like I can move it through objects, but bah, that only happens to the hands

so please, if anyone has some hint with getting full sleep paralysis, please help me... GOTTA wild or I'll go crazy trying

EDIT: bah another thign I've noticed, on all my non-lucid dreams, there are moments when I feel I have a bit control over... for example, this night I dreamt I was entering a dark room, and I thought like "use your will, just make it" and suddenly the room was lit.... not only that, but tonight also, I dreamt I was in a videogame (hail rpg) and by my will, I accessed the menu LMAO - laugh at me if you wan tplease, but I'm 100% sure I did it counsciously

luv ya all, sorry for making you read all the background story