new to this site. i have never logged a dream but i would like to start. i have very interesting dreams. and for some reason my dreams feel as real as the "real"? so how can i distinguish reality from dream. the feeling, the air, the smell, everything is so real. when i wake, i feel like im still dreaming. its very freaky to know my dreams can be so real. i know im dreaming but i cant control what happens. im standing there and everything happens against my will. i can clear the dream and add color. i can see as if it was with my real eyes. but im powerless to help what happens.

just the other night, i have a lucid dream only 3 minutes after sleeping. i closed my eyes and right away the images flew in. i knew what was happening so i cleared it up so i could see clearly. i looked at my feet and hands. i touched my face. i smelled the air.i touched the counter of the school room i was in. it was a japanese elementary school. there was a post board that had paintings of japanese calligraphy. so many vivid colors of paper. the moon shun in through the window. the water dripped in the sink to my side. i was in a back office room. the lights were off. but in the room to my left, through the door the lights were on. i stood up and balanced myself.i walked towards the 2 desk in front of me. i was sleeping in my bed but my spirit was there and i was sure of it. i was there in a very real sense. to see through those dream eyes felt like seeing through my real eyes. and then a girl came screaming into the room. she ran behind the desk. and a man stood at the door with a knife in his hand. and he felt or saw me. then when he walked to the girl, i was sucked back into my body. i opened my eyes as if i had just blinked. only 3 minutes had gone by.


now im not religious at all. i know there is something after death. i have felt it and seen it. believe me or not is up to you. but ever since i was a kid, i have seen many ghost and things kids shouldnt see. i have seen them as if they were real people. i have been attacked and found with scratches, bruises and bite marks on my body. there is something after we die. heaven, not likely to me. but i feel my soul will be an all knowing knowledge with no body to inhabit. but when my body is returned to another body, all is forgotten and left to find out in another lifetime.

i have constant deja vu. every waking minute is a minute i have already seen and/or lived. i can call it in my head before something happens. and it always does as i think "i knew it was going to happen, i knew you would say those exact words" i dream of the day ahead of me sometimes. now what is it when we do that?? are we psychic?? do we posses the ability to be something greater??

so what is it to be lucid?? are we dreaming? or living? are we living in another time or another place? are our souls constantly active while or physical bodies arent? seeing and traveling gaining knowledge while we sleep??

i want to know the real answer to these questions. but i know they cant be given to me. i will seek them out myself......