New and having a few questions

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Hello my name is cliff..yeah its a wierd name xD,i am 15 years old (sophomore) but anyways im new here and i got into lucid dreaming about 2 weeks ago.I was just lurking on the forums for a long time finding answers.My lucid dreaming isnt successful but ive been keeping a notepad dream journal everytime i wake up.Sometimes i may not remember but then it hits me just like that.I want to lucid dream not only for selfish reasons but to conquer fears and learn more about my true self.I also have to tell you i am scared sometimes about lucid dreaming because of my uncontrollable mind and such.My favorite movie that makes me motivated is the matrix.Though its machine based i believe that lucid dreaming is somewhat related to the matrix but without the machines...or is it? xD lol anyways i have a huge imagination.By huge i mean super huge.Like making my own episodes relating to naruto,the matrix,Bleach,and other animes and movies but its so fun xD.I usually listen to music.I admit i am selfish when thinking because i always seem to imagine a audience of people watching me but it gets tiring.Anyways i have a few questions i hope you will answer and help me. 1.What is adoption in this forum mean? can i be adopted? i want to learn 2.My curtains are wierd.they have lines,about 3 different colors.When i look at them they seem to morph into each other like ice cream melting.What does this mean?<<i am awake..tryed reality tests 3.How do i get to the lucid crossroads? 4.Does meditation help to induce lucid dreaming? if it does can u give me tutorial or something. 5.I admit i smoke weed sometimes but only every week.I quit for about 3 weeks and its not all addicting but will it induce a lucid dream? 6.How do i see the world as a lucid dream? 7.Do nightstalkers exist? D: 8.Is it possible to be visit someone else's dreams? 9.Ive tryed sleep paralysis but have a hard time doing it..usually its hard to breathe.everything else is numb and its a good thing but the only thing that bothers me is the breathing.This huge painful thing on the right side of my chest,Feels like my left lung or right is gonna explode and saliva building up from not swallowing? 10.How do i do a WILD? These are all the questions.I hope they aint alot and im sorry but anyways i am really interested and motivated! Btw adopt me...if i really find out what is it i guess? lol