Reise, Reise

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Hey everyone. So I had a couple of lucid dreams a while back (2 or 3 years?) and since then I've had some control over my dreams (not much, but some). Basically this means I haven't had a single nightmare and dreams generally go alright, but I'm looking for some greater control. I don't actually go lucid, there's no awareness that I'm dreaming, the dreams just go my way. So I have some of the control, but none of the lucidity. Is that normal? Now, I'd like to actually take control of my dreams. The times I had control I would try to forcibly return to parts of the dream I enjoyed, and it worked... but when I tried to take greater conscious control, I would wake up. It was like there was a limit to how complicated I could make my actions and thinking a complex thought would break that limit and wake me up. I could at most express a desire to return to a particularly pleasant part of the dream and my mind might take me there, but it wasn't at all reliable and it's not as much control as I would like. It was like my mind forcing my surroundings to return. I'm not really sure how to describe it, it's like forcibly bending the time of the dream around you... but I guess more like warping since time is somewhat meaningless in a dream. The thing is that most of the time this doesn't work. If I attempt to gain control of my dreams in a conscious manner, I wake up. I remember there was one time I was struggling to stay half-asleep and dreaming while trying not to think so hard so I wouldn't wake up. Dreams were always what I looked forward to most as a kid and I would love to get back to that I haven't heard from many others that have shared my experiences (any, really). I hope I might be able to find some here, or at least some people to help me on my way. p.s. I feel things in my dreams just as I would in real life. I feel the apple, I feel the pain, I feel the person next to me. I haven't found anyone else that does that either. Again, something I hope to find here. Anyone here share that trait? -viral p.s.s. I looked over the dream control tutorial on the site, paying particular attention to passive control. I suppose what I do is closest to affirmation, but not exactly. Affirmation Your dream will create things that you know are there. When you are in your house in a lucid dream, you know that the kitchen is next to the dining room, and therefore, it is so. This works for everything. You can create an object or a person by knowing that they are through the nearest door or just around the corner. This may prove difficult at first because there is a difference of saying and believing. You have to know 100% that what you want is somewhere in your dream. If there is any doubt in your mind, then it won't show up. I feel like for me, changing the dream is fundamentally changing the thoughts around me. If I don't want something there, it never was. But again, I can't do this actively it seems a little odd to me because training myself to think in certain ways or convince myself of the truth of something is a technique I've learned fairly well. My will is exerted, my inclinations aren't. oh well. Hopefully I'll find the answer (and some really cool people) here.