Thread: New here.....

Hello all! I am new to the forum and just wanted to let you know a little about myself.

I started paying close attention to my dreams about 12 years ago. I was having alot of false awakenings. Almost every night - and they were terrifying to say the least. When they first started, it was always the same one - I would "wake up" in my own bed - then strangers would break into the room via my bedroom window and terrorize me. It got to the point that I was scared to fall asleep and it was making me physically ill. Then one night during the false awakening I looked over to my dresser and there was nothing on it (my dresser is full of things). This was the first time I realized that I was actually still sleeping. Every night before I went to bed I would pin point something in my room that I would look for when I woke up. I would "wake up" look for the object and if I didn't find it I would somehow work my way out of the nightmare. Sometimes this would go on and on with continuous false awakenings. It got to the point that if I did have a false awakening I would simply close my eyes and wake myself up.

I used to get false awakenings when I was younger - always with me waking up and coming into our livingroom to find my Mother sleeping on the couch with her back turned to me. I would proceed to wake her up and of course it would never be her. Always the same vampire. Of course at that age (10 or 11) I didnt know what was happening but, the outcome was the same - I was terrified to fall asleep.

About 10 years ago I experienced my first lucid dream. I was hang gliding but I keep falling to the ground. There was always something terrifying awaiting me when I hit the ground. At this point, I had never heard of lucid dreaming. During the dream (after having hit the ground 5 or 6 times) I remember thinking to myself - I'm dreaming! From that point on during the dream I did not hit the ground. I had full control of my dream and it was amazing. I never told anyone about it because I worried they would think I was crazy!

Anyway, I havent had any lucid dreams in the past year. I dont even remember my dreams anymore. I miss it