I agree with A Lost Soul...i've just replied to your other thread.
You have a very big decision to make, it would seem.
And when you make it, it's going to cause repercussions, for a little while. Nothing comes without a consequence. Things may actually feel worse before they feel better, but you have to ride that out.
Kinda like going cold turkey on an addiction i guess, it gets worse, then it gets better.
When you make that decision, whatever it may be, after you've made it, just take one day at a time.
Seems you've got out of the habit of 'living' for a long time, and you've been existing.
So, one day at a time is like the 'training wheels' as someone so aptly put it.
And as the days go by, it will get easier. You won't notice it at first, until maybe one morning, weeks down the line, it might take longer...you wake up. And for some reason, you just feel brighter. Your heart might be lighter.
You won't be able to say why, you'll just feel glad to be 'alive'
I know that's what happened to me...
I went through a very tough time six months ago...and i came through it, all on my own. At the time, i didn't have DV, or anyone to talk to...even my mates couldn't really understand it when i talked about it, it was like 'here's liz, going on about it again...' Acceptance of a situation was the first step, and then came a period of 'forgetting' if you like, living day to day.
And then, one morning, i woke up. And somehow i knew...things were going to be different. And they were.
On that day, i met someone...someone who is changing my life, piece by piece. Forcing me to evaluate all my old opinions of myself, but not making me feel obliged to give anything back for it.
Where i had slammed a door, locked it and thrown away the key, they came along and broke it in...let the light in, cleared the dust and the cobwebs out.
Made me realise that just because i made a mistake on someone, doesn't write me off as hopeless.
And i wouldn't be without them now.
hell, i don't know if this is making any sense...i guess i'm trying to reach you...it's like you're wandering around in some kind of fog...and you need to separate all this advice out that's been thrown at you, and make sense of it.
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