This is going to sound so stupid, but please don't get the wrong idea.
I'm totally, completely, dangerously obsessed with an online game or "virtual reality" called Habbo Hotel. It's a bit like sims or imvu but better than both of those. I say it's not a game because there's really no "point", no "mission" and there's no way you can "win". Virtual reality or 3D chat room is the best way I can describe it.
Now, here is where you're probably going to write me off as a gaming nerd and completely skip the rest of this, but that's how I know it's an addiction and not just a personality thing.
I've never been into gaming of any sort. Don't like game consoles, not even card games interest me all that much. I'm not a loner who relies on the internet for friendship.. on the contrary I have (well, used to.. this game is taking over my life) loads of friends and wherever I go people seem to like me but recently I prefer my online friends to real people 100%.
I may describe myself as a bit of a dork in that I'm slightly clumsy and I like odd things, but I'm not a geek. I used to get straight As and I used to love doing math and even enjoyed studying, but only because I was born with a stupidly high IQ and so school was always easy for me, which left room for it to be enjoyable. Also I started school a year early and skipped 2 grades, so I was 4 in 2nd grade. Now, because of Habbo, I'm failing every one of my classes, and I'm risking having to put off university for a year and repeat the last year of school.
I didn't think I had an addictive personality, but the first time I played this I made myself ill by not sleeping or eating for a week.
My new friends are the only ones pointing little things out to me so I'm only now starting to realise it but I've noticed I usually prefer staying on Habbo to going out, I schedule my life around activities my online friends and I plan on Habbo, and I haven't been to school for more than a day or two a week for the last month or so.
It's really becoming worse than it was 3 years ago but it's also becoming seriously uncontrollable.
I don't know why I made this post so long, lol, I'd only intended to write the first paragraph but I've actually never admitted to any of these things out loud (or whatever you call this) before so it's quite.. liberating I suppose. You're probably not even reading this far, but it felt good to get it out there.
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