Otters and God

[darkblue]

Friday night before this lucid, I went night hiking with two girls and a guy. We hiked up into a cave and began talking about all sorts of things. One girl mentioned she used to be Wiccan long ago and though I am not of any particular faith, I too, in the past have been into magic. The guy said not to touch things like that because he had seen things that were evil. I asked him if he was afraid. And he said no. He kept making stupid sex jokes about everything. It was kind of funny but annoying too. Then we got on the subject of dreams and the guy was the only one who knew about astral travel and said he had had those types of 'dreams' but that he always got stuck on the ceiling, in the rafters and he couldn't fly very well. So then we talked about spirit animals and I told them of a lucid dream I had had many years ago about being on a bridge looking down at the otters playing in the stream below...and a man came up and started attacking me...and one of the otters literally flew from the stream and bit the guy and the man ran away. So I thought the otter was my spirit animal. Then the man on the hike teased me about astral travel. I tried to lighten it and interest him by saying how great astral sex was. He became even more irritating and called it astro sex and kept making stupid jokes all the way home in the car. Ok so I had a lucid dream after the hike. I was in a very lavish home and was trying to get out. It reminded me of my wealthy parent's home and I had just heard from my Father that day. I could not get through the walls. I tried to go up through the ceiling and got stuck on it. Then I got stuck in the rafters. Finally I got out but found that my flying wasn't working. I was so frustrated. These types of things never happen to me. I can always go through any material effortlessly and flying is a cinch. So I created a small red flying machine and this worked well. I asked to go see river otters. I immediately was hovering over a beautiful stream and could see otters playing upstream so I directed my machine up to them...but it went the opposite way downstream where some family member was in the water ordering me to go back into the house! Finally I got up to the otters but instead of watching them playing they were fornicating ruthlessly. I found this disturbing. So I asked to BE an otter. And suddenly a white otter appeared on the tip of my index finger. He was only a quarter of an inch long. He began screwing my finger and it felt like I was being stabbed over and over with a splinter. I threw him off and in desperation asked to BE GOD! I saw a pink and blue vaporous and beautiful egg shaped ball of light about 5 feet by 4 feet in front of me. Again, I asked to BE GOD. I was suddenly filled with this presence of complete....liquidity, gooiness, no physical pain, mind, weightlessness...like I was on a drug that I have never been on...like euphoria...complete and total euphoria...no thinking...no nothing....just the most incredible through and through being of pure annihilation of everything and every pain of being human..I was floating in pure rapture. Then faces began appearing and this God thing was trying to show me that God is in everyone or either that I had been these people before. I have experienced seeing myself as other people before so this was just a reminder that we are all God experiencing this earth plane in human form and that we are all connected. So I deducted from this dream that I experienced all the man's fears on the hike and it sucked. I guess I don't hang around with him? Only problem is he dates my friend so he is always around. I definitely won't get into discussing dreams with him as his fears and sex talk and experiences ruined my adventure until I did the God thing! The 'Being God' is fabulous and I will try that again! Just wanted to keep you posted on the Being God exercize. The other stuff I found very interesting but frustrating. I mean why did I have to experience the guy on the hike's own crappy dream stuff ?

[gab]

That's one interesting dream.

[darkblue]

You're such a sweetie...thanks gab!