:EDIT I had to change the post title, because it was a bit misleading..

If any of this doesn't seem clear, just let me know and I will give as much detail as possible. I'm doing my best to explain this, and trust me I remember it ALL.

Background
On many occasions I've been able to watch how my dreams happen. I'm able to see the whole sequence of events from start to finish. When this happens, I am in a state/place that is hard for me to explain clearly. The STATE I'm at is the point where I'm not fully awake nor asleep. Its the point of where you can either dream if you want or wake up if you want. All I see around me is darkness, but I know that I'm not looking at the darkness through my physical eyes. The PLACE that I'm at when this happens I'm not sure of. If I had to guess I'd say that I'm inside my mind (I know it sounds stupid). A close example would be one episode of Dragon Ball Z, when Vegeta and Goku went inside the head of Majin Buu. Buu was still active in the physical world, but he also had a presence inside his mind. Anyway, that's where I'm at. There is no sound, and no light, but I'm aware that I'm not awake, and I'm not dreaming and that I'm.....THERE in this place.

The Dreaming Begins
My dreams start 1 of 3 ways. 2 of which begin in total darkness.

1. I can actually see dreams passing before my eyes. They scroll from right to left, one behind the other. The dreams look just like what you'd see on a TV screen, except there are no defined boundries where the dream scene that you are looking at meets the darkness around it. The dreams at first are not in color when I'm watching them go by, and they are not in black and white. Everything in the dream scene is outlined in this light gray/greenish color, but I'm able to make out what's going on. If you look at the picture below, just visualize a dream going on in each of those picture cells, only there would not be any lines defining the dream area, and it is much bigger. I'm sure most of you have seen movie introductions where they have the film moving, and a different movie playing in each cell...



Now when I see this happening, Its like I'm being presented with a choice of dreams that I can enter. I literally make a sub-concious thought like...."Hmmm this looks interesting, lets see what it's like". Once that happens, immediately, the dream scene becomes more clear, and begins to fill with color (This happens really quick). Then I enter into the dream as if though I've been apart of it all along. To get an idea of what its like when I enter the actual dream from a point of view perspective, visualize this: You are walking down a sidewalk in a city. There are stores on the side walk, that all have glass windows (like in New York). As you are walking by each store, the scenery, people, etc. are different for each one. If you see something going on inside that you like, then you just open the door and going inside. Now you are a part of what was going on inside that store you liked. Only when I go into my dreams there is no physical barrier that keeps me from entering in. I'll end this one here for now..

2. The second way I've seen my dreams begin when starting with darkness is like this...

I can see my dream coming towards me. This time it actually has a shape. Its square just like a TV screen is. Initially I can only see a faint light in the distance. It is really small. But it gets bigger and bigger as it's coming towards me. As it draws near, I can see what's going on inside the area. I can see the scenery, people and everthing. I can hear nothing though. Once the dream area gets so large that it takes up my point of view, I'm already inside, and I begin dreaming. The crazy part is this. When my dreams start this way, I can look and move around freely, but I cannot speak. My movement is VERY VERY stiff. It's like I have to tell my arms and legs to move...sometimes they do, sometimes they don't. I try to say something, but no words come out. It feels like blowing a bubble with bubble gum. As the dream progresses, I gain my sense of touch and taste. If the sun is shinning, I can feel the heat from the sun beams on my skin. Everything I touch I can feel. It feels JUST LIKE THE REAL THING. I cannot tell the difference, only that I know I'm dreaming. Only after I can all of my sense do I began to speak verbally. When I have sex in my dreams it feels just like...sex. I can feel the warmth, moisture, softness of skin, the teeth and lips when I kiss people....the whole 9 yards, and the orgasms are much more intense . My senses seem more pronounced when I dream like this. I'll end this section here too...


3. The third way that see my dreams begin is a little different. I just start off in the dream world...BUT the dream hasn't began yet, but I know I'm inside, because I can see the scenery all around me (sun, sky, flowers, etc) but there are no people around. This is the scary part. I'm moving against my own will through the dream world..it is a floating type movement. It feels like someone picked my up and is carrying me somewhere. I can see everything around me as I'm moving through the air..my god it is soooo beautiful....I don't know how to explain it. Then I can sense that my movement is slowing down. Then it comes to a stop, and I'm back on the ground free to move about and do as I please. Only then did I realize what had just happened. When I entered my dream and began to float to a destination, I was being carried to a point in the dream world were my dream actually starts action wise!! In other words..I'm in the dream, but I haven't started dreaming yet. When I'm floating nothing is moving around me in the dream world. everything is still. When I stop floating, everything goes into motion. I can hear, smell, taste, etc. like I normally do in dreams. I LOVE IT when I start dreams off like this. I'll end this one here...

Any other time I'm dreaming, I don't know how it started....I'm just there.

I apologize for this being so long, but I thought I'd share. There is SOOO much more left that I have to tell about, but its me bed time now. Talk to yall later.