Ok, being a bit dramatic, but I just recently woke up from a nightmare. And you know how nightmares are, they're just filled with that crippling irrational fear. That's how this one was.

It all started with me trying out a new technique tonight to gain lucidity. I wrote down the part from the HILD technique that goes like:

"Knowledge doesn’t matter right now. It does when I’m dreaming and when I’m fully awake. However, all that matters right now is my goal to have long, vivid, highly lucid, realistic lucid dreams with full control every night with complete recall of the dreams every morning upon awakening. "

over and over again in a notebook. I wrote it down 6 times, I think, until my hand hurt.

This worked too well!! I start to sleep, and automatically become lucid, no buffer zone, just right from wakefulness to the lucidity. I could still hear the outside street noises, but I was floating above my bed. I hear a man call my name to the right, and this is where the crippling irrational fear begins. I start to rub my hands together to keep the dream together. This works, but the dream is sooo slow. The air is like water. I get one rub in, and try going to my door, to change the dream scene, but I'm too slow. I then wake up, just filled with that fear.

I start hating the whole fact of LD's, and myself for writing down all that stuff to trigger this. I'm so dreadfully scared to LD now. All of my previous LD's have been wonderful amazing experiences.

Have you guys gotten LD nightmares, and overcome them? It's so ridiculous that those 3 seconds of fear in the dream, and 10 minutes of lying in bed under the covers being scared just killed all my will to continue this. I don't ever wanna feel that fear again.